Decision

There will be a point in life when we started to get confuse with what we have in life. We start questioning about everything. We wanna know what is good and right for us. We try to justify everything so that the path is clear for us.

However, it is not an easy task to do. We need courage and support. We start digging for everything that might be possible to be chosen as the answer without realizing that is not the thing that we are looking for.

It is the mentor. We need someone to guide us. Someone to help us, to look for something that we are searching for. We need someone that could always be there whenever we need them. A place for us to share our thoughts, ideas and jokes.

The question here is, HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE?

Ketentuan

Sesungguhnya, bagai telah dihidu, entry kali ini adalah kesinambungan daripada yang sebelumnya. Kita merancang. Sebaik manapun perancangan kita, semuanya berbalik kepada ' kun fa ya kun'.

" jika itu yang dikehendakiNYA, maka jadilah ia"

Sebagai hambaNya, tiada lain yang mampu kita lakukan melainkan berusaha memperoleh redhanya. Yakinkan diri, semua ini ada hikmahnya; ujian untuk meningkatkan keimanan serta menguatkan diri dalam mengharungi dugaan. Juga sebagai acara menundukkan ego yang dahulunya tinggi melampau, agar kita kembali melihat ke bumi, memperbaiki dan menyelami kekurangan diri.

Alhamdulillah. Sesungguhnya, keredhaan itulah yang amat perlu.

Namun, redha bukanlah bererti mengaku kalah. Perlu di ingat, redha itu adalah melepaskan sesuatu dengan keazaman dan iktikad untuk terus berjaya. Terus berjaya di masa akan datang. Terus berjaya dalam menempuh cabaranmasa hadapan. Dan terus berjaya, dalam menangani ragam kehidupan.

" tanpa pengalaman, siapalah kita?"

Orang tua2 selalu berkata, "aku dah banyak makan garam daripada kamu semua". Ini jelas terbukti kebenarannya. Semakin banyak pengalaman yang kita alami, semakin bersedia untuk kita mengharungi hari2 mendatang. Lagit tak selalunya cerah. Jadi, bersedialah.

" kau belum cukup berusaha untuk kau terus bertawakal "

Semuanya memerlukan usaha. Berusaha menegakkan apa yang diyakini sebagai hak. Berusaha dalam memperoleh sesuatu. Berusaha dalam mencapai kejayaan. Kemudian bertawakallah.

Sesungguhnya, segalanya akan berbalik kepada ketentuaNya.

'kun fa ya kun'

Redha

We plan. We could plan as much as we like. But in the end, Allah is the one who decides. We haw no power to go against what had been planned for us. We are human.

The only thing we could do is redha. And start palnning again.

The cycle goes.

Positive

I had a conversation with a friend regarding people behaviours. There are many types of people that we were discussed about but not as crucial as people who is always being negative.

Negativitiy in one's life is not only damaging that person's life, but it is also affecting those who always come near or anyone who keep close contacts with the person.

This is dangerous. When this is happening, and you are part of it, it would only ruining your future, but aslo affecting people around you. They would start feeling 'uneasy' whenever you are around.

A simple analogy. A negative person would have loads of negative vibes. When you are someone who is natural, yourself is natural from any vibes. However, when u keep your distance near to the person full of negativity, the charges would start to be absorbed by you and the longer it takes, the more it is being accumulated. In the end, you are just another copycat version of the negative person you met.

This is sad. And this is probably one o the reasons for some of us who changed. We might not realize it but the rest of the people around us would. This is where the positivity and negativity applies again in life. If someone come to us and tell us that we have changed, negative peopel would repulse but the positive ones would absorb and start accessing the informations.

That is why, it is important to have positive vibes around you. They are your supports, to keep you reaizing of what is good and what is not.

Be positive and mix up with positive people.

Free is good

Many things can be done with an ipad2.

Like what im doing atm, tengok alamak toyol jom?

I can read free books too.
Free magazines
Free games
Free apps
And many more free stuffs

Owh life is good when everything is free! Yum

The final, the end.

Morning

Finally, i am done with this year's uni. Feel releif! No more pressure in persuiting my life. Weehoo

On the other note, it's time to start planning about the future. Few things in my mind:

1. Aussie holidays with cousins
2. Gaining money for personal pleasure! (yeah)
3. Gym to get back in shape :( ( been stopping myself from any physical activities since the early of the sem)

And now, it's time to make all of these happen.

P/s: this post is posted using blogger apps for my iphone. This is new to me. Just installed it few minutes ago and thought of give it a try.

U know what, I miss my mom.

Slow

I read it somewhere,

'keep walking eventhough u r as slow as the tortoise. If u can still remember, the tortoise was the one who won the race with the rabbit! "

I know that I am slow. But I will never give up!

Wide angle

During my kys selection, there was a group work which is called 'futuristic project'. Well, at that time i thought it was called 'future-realistic project' and only knew that i was wrong when i was in form 2!

Anyway, the point is during the project, my group had came out with the idea of having a phone which could be used to watch tv, listen to radio, take photos and more other practical applications (eg time, alarm etc) besides its original function which was as a mobile phone.

We had came out with a mock up model on how the phone gonna look like.

And that was in 1999! Comparing to the mobile phones that we could find nowadays, they are exactly the same like what we have thought of!

I'm predicting that the next in thing is - the camera! With high quality pictures, better lenses, compact and user friendly, comes with wifi and 3g, as well as the photo editting software - eg. Photoshop, picasa, etc.

Why?

Social network is the booming trend at the moment. And that is mostly how peole socializing with each other. With no face-to-face interactions, PHOTOS have taken the its role. Good photos will make people look high on us!

So, a camera is the answer!

'Its redundant. U have your mobile phone! Just improve the camera on your phone and it would make life easy!'

-Damn! I need my talian hayat!!!

Malas

Dari tadi duduk mengadap bende nih. Kerja bergerak seinci je.

Lebih tuh duduk main2. Susah lah kalo takde minat nk buat keje. Skarang cuma tinggal nk edit. Tp still malas. Sapa nk tolong? Tolong berbayar? Ehem.

Fish eye

I bought 2 lenses for my iphone from ebay

1. Wide angle + macro
2. Fish eye

After trying both lenses, i am very satisfied with the result! Been trying with the video and camera and yes, it is worth it to buy!

'who said u have to own a dslr to play with fish eye? Who said?'

Finalizing the site model

Weehooo!! Now can concentrate on the main project! Aaauum

Tolong baca

Funnyh?

Hardwork

One week of hardwork! One month to go! Arghh

Genius.

RIP. PARTS OF U ARE IN ME. ITS ABOUT TIME.

Football

My brain needs rest.

Be yourself!

I was trying to be like the rest of the architects.

'architects love black'

They'll wear everything in black. Every single things that they have are in black. Jacket, t shirt, pants, specs etc. Well, to them, black is elegant!

But for me, o pls! U make my life miserable! Let me just be me! No more black! I just couldnt be myself when i'm in black.

I went through my wardrobe and 3 colors that describe myself are:
1. Blue
2. Yellow
3. Red
4. Green

Ok its 4! Actually more. So from now onwards, i'll be myself. I'll color myself the way I like. Be fancy but elegant! Yeah, that describes me the best!!!

Ehem! I love rainbow colors but not part of it! Hehehe. U know what I mean :)

Addiction

1. Siti Nurhaliza
2. Anuar Zain

I bought the latest album by Siti and zaril sent me Anuar's album. And of course, both of the albums are currently in my most frequent list in intune.

I like Siti's because of the music. English album indeed something new + different from her. Im not an expert in music but in her latest album, i could say that all of them are good. As for the lyrics, i like her 'stand up'! My fav songs in this album

1. Remember Me
2. Stand up
3. All your love

If you are looking for something to listen to while doing your maths or any stress works, listen to this album! It keeps u awake. And dance. And happy!

As for Anuar's, nothing much different in term of his music. Still the same as before. And judging from his vocal, there is not much different from his previous albums. However, LISTEN TO THE LYRICS! They are all very meaningful. And meaningful. And owh owh awesome!

My favs:
1. Ajari aku
2. Ku berjanji kerana cinta
3. Sempurnakan aku

Yum yum!

Conclusion

This is to conclude of what had been done today.

1. Model making
2. Sustainable Architecture Essay final editting + submission
3. Edit + Resubmit resume to maxis

Arghhhhh. Havent having any sleep since subuh. With only 3hrs of sleep last night! Thanks to the thick nescafe! Another jug to go before weekly prrsentation tomorrow.

Faith

I tried doing the celebrity face match with my 'cool' spec on. And the result was the bomb!

I AM DALAI LAMA!

I knew it since the 1st day i installed the app into my iphone, there is something that it tried to tell me but i couldnt understand. And today is the day!

I'm gonna be someone who is very influencial in the future, just like Dalai Lama.

Journey

Whatever it is, the journey has to move on. I'll go with the flow.

In the end, it is not what people want you to have in life. It is want you want matters the most!

Love yourself, love your life!

And pray!

Confusion

Im sure, when u have reached at the stage where you start to know what is good and bad for yourself, then only u realize that what you are doing at the moment is not what you really want. If that is so, how on earth u were able to reached at that stage on the first place?

Things become more complicated if the decision that u have to make, would not only affecting yourself, but also ur love ones. To make it worst, they have to bear it eventhough they dont really know they are actually has own role in the decision that u have to make.

It is so hard to decide until u come to a point where u have to sacrifice to win everyones heart. You could just be an ignorant bustard but that is definitely not best the decision.

And now, what u have to do is just to go with the flow and sail in the ocean of nowhere. You are sure that your future is at the other end. You just need to keep sailing, gaining all the possible experience before involving yourself into another chapter that u have been waiting for since the day u realized about what exactly u want, the best for ur life!

Mood

Now that I have the mood, I feel like going to my bed. Its 2.00am here!

Knowing myself, if I go to sleep now, n wake up in the morning, I would not do my design until at night. So I would rather stay here until I really feeling sleepy. Then only I would say good bye.

Reflects

Been very busy with uni works lately. Cant help it. Ive no way to say no.

Ive promised at the beginning of this year that I have to finish of what ive started. Eventhough it is damn hard, there is no turning back for me.

Just something to keep me going:

1. Ive paid the final year exhibition fee and it is not cheap! Aud100 gone just like that!

2. I wanna go back Malaysia by August next year. Or mybe earlier.

3. Frankly speaking, after 5 years staying away from the family, I am desperately HOMESICK! I know it shouldnt be that way, homesick is for the newcomer. But in my case, it is the other way round.

4. All my friends are back.

5. Seriously, Sydney is not a place for me. It is a good place for holiday but for someone who is very close to the family, Malaysia is always the place to be.

6. I couldnt find anything that could 'click' me to stay here. Many had tried to influence me to be here but I still could not see any good reason to stay.

7. Kalau tak dipecahkan ruyung, manakan dapat sagunya

8. Hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik di negeri sendiri

9. I could see my star is shining at the other side of the globe, not here.

10. Love is no more here.

Random

Air dicincang takkan putus


Hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri

adoi adoi adoi

sekarang nih mmg things are getting very extremely explicitly complicated!

how i wish english is my first language.

sonang kerjo den!

Tough

As far as I remember, Ramadhan always comes with the hardest HURDLE for me to pass. Real hard. And for the last few years, they were indeed had given me good lesson about life.

Same goes to this year. It is very tough especially when you have to face it by yourself. How I wish all my supporters to be by my side and cheer me up until the end. But that is just a dream. Nothing is as simple as that in this world.

Two things that suddenly visible to my sights tonight:

1. Tawakal.
2. It is also 'haram' to stop believing in Allah's mercy.

Selamat berbuka 3

Ok dh terliur dah.

Selamat berbuka 2

Selamat berbuka 1

Senjakala

Hidup tak selalu indah
Langit tak selalu cerah

Ramadhan

Dah lepas 8 ramadhan. Nak masuk yg ke 9 pulak. Alhamdulillah, segalanya dipermudahkan. Walaupun ini tahun ke 5 ramadhan tanpa keluarga, alhamdulillah, segala perasaan rindu dapat dikawal sebaiknya.

Tak sedih ke? Tipu la kalau tak sedih. Mana nak sama sahur dgn family dgn sahur sorang2. Mana nak sama buka masakan mak dengan buka nasi putih je. Tak sama. Memang sayu kalau difikirkan nasib diri yg merantau. Namun, nak atau tanak, kehidupan tetap perlu diteruskan.

Banyak bezanya. Mak pon ada cakap masa call harituh.

" Tak boleh balik raya ke tahun nih?"

Terdiam sekejap masa tuh. Tak tau nak jawab mcm mana. Mungkin dah lama tak beraya bersama. Tuh yang tepacul keluar kat mulut mak....

" Mak, diorang semua ada kat rumah?"
" Diorang semua pergi bazaar Ramadhan"
" Dah lama dah abang tak pergi bazaar Ramadhan. Rindu pulak "

Mak pulak terdiam. Sayu. Boleh dgr kat suara dia. Menyesal jugak terlepas cakap
macam tuh....

" Abang, kau nak kuih apa? "
" Aku nak bahulu. Kau carik yang rangup2 tau. Kalau yg lembik tuh aku tak makan "
" Lagi? Nih aku dgn ayah nak pergi beli nih "

Aku terharu. Tanda ingatan semua. Walaupun berjuta batu berjauhan, kami dekat dihati. Masing2 sibuk mencari cara agar kesibukan ramadhan dan kemeriahan syawal yg bakal menjelma dapat aku rasa. Sayu....

Mungkin masa dekat2 dulu, selalu je bergaduh.
Mungkin masa serumah dulu selalu je tak suka.
Mungkin masa kecik2 dulu selalu je benci.

Tapi itu semua dulu. Suatu masa yg tak dapat nak amik semula. Cuma ingatan. Dan ingatan itulah yang menjadikan, kami semua akrab, rapat, sehati dan sejiwa.

Sesungguhnya, merekalah harta yang paling bermakna dalam hidup ini.

Semoga, dengan berkat Ramadhan kali ini, kami semua beroleh barakah, dipermudahkan rezeki dan dipanjangkan jodoh untuk dapat bertemu di kemudian hari.

Salam sayang sang perantau.

InsyaAllah

I know that I am just recycling the same photo here BUT at the time I am writing this, it totally has a different meaning.

Different degree
Different experience
Different difficulties
Different way of thinking

It is hard. Well, nothing is easy in this world. People keep saying,

"it is not easy to get easy"
"it is all about the hardwork and determination u have put in"

Eventhough I am still wondering about how future is gonna treat me, but one thing that I know at this moment is,

" no turning back!"

I have to finish with what i have started. The journey is less than a year to go.

Pray for me.

InsyaAllah

Baby

After 2 weeks, this is what I could come out for my design tomorrow.

I still need to finish my shematic model in 24hrs! Good nite. I need rest too.

Kisah Si Minti

Di kaunter:

Minti: Kau nampak tak 'isolatif'?

sambil berdiri dan mencangkung mencari2 di pigeon hole

Aku: Apa?

dan terus membasuh cawan2 di sinki

Minti: isolatif isolatif!

Aku: (sambil tersenyum) cuba carik kat dapur, kan ko je yg guna.

Di dapur:

Minti terus ke dapur dan mencari2.

Minti: Nampak isolatif tak?

Auntie: Huh? Apa?

Minti: Isolatif isolatif! Isolatif!

Auntie: Apa? (muka semakin blur)

Aku dah tersenyum sorang2 kat depan.

Aku: SELOTAPE! SELOTAPE!

Auntie: HA HA HA HA HA HA! Aku ingat ko cakap " SI YUSOF SI LATIP"

Aku, Auntie, Jufri, Minti: HA HA HA HA HA HA

Crave

I am officially a fan of continental cake! Whenever I feel like eating something sweet, I'll just go to any cake shop and choose any cake that is appealing to me.

And thank God that Gloria Jeans is just 5mins from my hse!

Tasteless

I look at my posts and realized that all of them were composed in the 'serious' mode. I wonder, why is that happened?

And today, after beeing so lazy updating my blog for the past few days, I am thinking to put another 'serious-tone-post' for all of us to ponder.... 'TAWAR HATI'!

So what can we say about that term?
NOT:
1. your heart is tasteless
2. It is not physically affected
3. Not for the animals

YES:
1. you started to feel annoyed with something
2. Emotinally affected which has the tendency to kill all the love that you have
3. From a human to another human. There is also in certain event like occupation, work-related but all of them are mainly due to the human behaviours

Why suddenly that is topic is being chosen?
I have to the stage to where I started to analyze on how does the behaviour of human beings started to change. So, I came out with a solution that it is all depending on the emotion level.

So basically, in order to tackle someone, you should know on how to conquer their emotion. You need to be tolerable and at the same time, firm with whatever your decision is. However, when things started to go not according to your way, and at the same time, whenever you feel that you are being used by others, a prevention action should be taken.

'TAWAR HATI'

That is one of the way to save your life.


It is about how you carry your emotion level to a certain level that you would not feel anything towards something/ someone. The love - which was originally the main element that you grow inside, had lost it touch. It has no direction to go, yet being kept at the corner where you yourself dont even know where to get back. It is missing in action, with no trace.

It is really hard to cure.

' for every sickness, there is always way to cure it '

If it happens to be that you are the one being ignored, and you realized about the mistake, look for the cure.

The trick here is,
' try to bring back those good memories '

Why?
Everyone loves good memories. It is the cure for everyone. It is like the key to the happy ending.


BUT,


dont simply take it and straight away show it. That is effortless. Everyone can do that.

' BE SMART '

Think of something 'usual but unusually done' to be incorporeted with the strategy. Plan it properly. Polish it as 'shiny' as possible and...
IT'S SHOWTIME!!

With bismillah and all the best!

Upgrade

This winter break is the best (?) I would say. Probably because this is the time where I could feel myself as an adult.

Why?

I'm very ignorant. So, eventhough I was having much fun time during the previous winter break, but I was not the one organiing it. In a way, it is a very clever act. You just have to pay for the fun! And the best part, it is very CHEAP!

Anyway, while enjoying myself during this year winter break, I had came across many things.
1. The future
2. The faith
3. The love
4. The choice
5. Science & Religion

To summrize into four categories, all of them were gathered through the events that happened to me which made me thinking and thinking only that I realized that I still couldnt find the solution.

1. The future
What is my future gonna be about?
InsyaAllah, I still have two more semesters before I am graduating with my Masters of Architecture. I am sure, many people will be impressived with it but for me, after nearly 5 years of studying architecture here in UNSW, I found that this is a one hell tough course! For those who managed to grad with great result especially in 'Design' subject, standing ovation from me.

When I was in my 2nd year, many of my friends dropped the course. At that time, I didnt understand why do they ended up changing their course doing something else. Most of them choose Business, accounting, management, etc. To me, architecture was not that hard. You just need some talent and much confident to excel in your presentation. I did great at that time.

However, things changed in my 3rd year. Design was no more my 'breakfast'. I did not know why. It seemed like I lost my touch and started to be afraid to let go all my ideas. The sad part is, it continue until now. I am still searching for the 'spark' so that I could be confident seeing myself as an architect after graduation.

At the moment, when people asking me to design for them a house, my reply gonna be;

" Sorry, I am gonna work with TV3. Earn lot of money and popularity, then I'm gonna open up a restaurant. Then I would have all the branches all around Malaysia, before going overseas. "

2. The faith
Alhamdulillah, I feel closer to Allah. Maybe the past had taught me a lot about life. Every lesson I gathered really had shaped me into a better human being. Alhamdulillah. I pray everyday for the continous love, imaan, hidayah and taufik so that I could go through everything with an open heart.

3. The love
Many loves. Much loves.

I have witnessed of what a mother is willing to do in saving her son's life. She would fly all the way to Sydney just to get to know about what is happening to the son. Many things that I have learnt from her:

1. Uni life and work life is very different. Eventhough you are the top scorer at uni, that does not mean you are going to excel in your career. If you are a nerd, staying in room not socializing with people, dont know how to communicate with others and always complaining, that is worst. You might ended up as a sad old man if you do not change that. Work life demands you to be flexible, smart and confident in every decision that you are doing.
2. Whatever that you do, Allah comes first. Make Islam as your way of life.
3. A mother would never say BAD THINGS about her child. Eventhough she knows about it, she would try to divert it into a poitive thinking. At first I thought that this is only happening in Malay Drama but I'm wrong. A mother will always see her child from their good deeds. There is no such thing as her child is bad. How lovely Allah has created a mother to be liked. The love shared is priceless!


4. The choice
Whatever we plan, whatever people tell us, the choice is always ours! We decide on everything that is involving our life. Whether it is good or bad, we have the final authority to decide. So, think wise. Please consider every single opinions by others as well as the condition that is going to be faced after each decision.

The rules here are:
1. Dont be selfish
2. How does the decision is affecting our life
3. Prepare with at least three back up plans

Lastly, tawaqal. Leave everything to Allah and keep praying for the best!


5. Science & Religion
I joined the research at uni on the TMS brain stimulation. I had to attend for 10 cosecutives weekdays to induce a small amount of current into my brain. The idea here is to enhance my brain performance. On the first day of the research, I had to asnwer few set of questionnairs and computer simulation to measure about my existence brain performance. The same set of questionnaires gonna be repeated on the final day of research.

As my personal experience, I found that after the final day of the research, it was indeed a positive result. I did very well in the computer simulation and the questionnaires. It felt like that it is easy to stimulate my brain whenever I am working on something. My brain felt very 'light', which helps me in developing many thoughts at the same period as before inducing the current to my brain.

It is adjusting my biological clock back to normal and allowing me to have a deep sleep every night. I felt more energetic during the day and my alertness and focusing level is enhanced.

However, I am not sure whether it is the side effect due to the experiment; I found it was sometimes very hard for myself to dig some of the old information from my brain. I came out with a theory (this is not provenly correct) that during the inducement of the current into my brain, it accidently had moved some of the stored memories into a new part of my brain which demands the me to force my thinking skills into a higher level in order to access it. Besides, there is also possibility that they are being eliminated while the process had taken. But one thing that I am sure, it was just a very tiny amount of them.


I had been doing lots of analyses during this break. And love them.

All works and no play...

Makes me a very slow boy!

Sometimes, it is good to go out and entertain yourself. If you keep yourself busy through the week, take yourself out maybe during the weekend to release the tension. Maybe you might say " I dont feel anything. I'm not tension or stress at all ". Yes you might be right. But, you have to remember, if you keep yourself or push yourself doing something the same, it would arouse the feeling of boring. So, you better prevent it before it is getting worst.

Go out! Do random things!

This will generates a happy hormones into yourself and things would started to flow just like normal. Happy ending?



Cliche is always the thing that people looking for.

Help!

There is a time that you are not feeling of doing anything. You wanna do something but you dont know what it is. You dont feel comfortable. You feel something is not right. There is something wrong with you but sadly, you cant figure out of what it is.


I hate it when I am in that situation. I cant proceed with what I had planned earlier. Even if I force myself to do it, by mind just cant stand it. My body really wanna do it but my soul say no.

"stop it! I cant take it!"

That is sad. You have no control of yourself anymore. You definitely in a dangerous situation. You are prone to the devilish thought. So, in this situation, you definitely need help. Or friend. Or someone that can stay with you, just so that you feel that you are not alone. Because whenever you feel lonely, you tend to do something which is beyond you normal.

We are just human. We cant live in this world by our own. We need others to help us. We definitely need them.

Chaos

It is really hard to describe about what happened today. One word - unpredictable?

1. After suboh I slept and woke up at around 9.30am. Today was my laundry day. So after taking my bath at around 10.30am, I started making my laundry. My friends whatsapp me telling that she was sick n hoping that I could replace her today. I said no since I just washed all my uniforms. She begged me, I said yes but only for the night shift. There went my resting day. My plan to finish the essay just gone
Iike that.

2. Since I need to use my uniform for the night shift, I sent my laundry to the laundry shop for dryer. I went to usual shop but it closed. That was weird since it stated there that they open everyday. Since I had no choice, I tried my luck to search for another shop. My friend once told me about there is another shop but I havent try it since I am satisfied with the service from the previous shop. Luckily, the shop opened and the price was even cheaper. I asked the laundrette, how much for dryer. He told me AUD5. I aksed him again for how long. He replied 40 mins. That was very cheap considering that the other shop charged me for AUD7.40 for the same period of time.

While waiting, after setting the timer for 40mins, I went 'sight seeing' around the area. There are many second hand shops, few 'latin shops' as well as asian shops. Nevertheless, it suddenly triggered me that the laundrette might be lieing to me. I went back to the shop after 20mins to check on my laundry. The dryer was still working. However, after 30mins, the laundrette sunddenly telling me that mine was done. Thats it, he is a total bullshit! Luckily all my clothes were already dried, if not I am gonna make a scene at his shop!

3. After zuhur, I read surah al waqiah which I usually do at night, before going to sleep. It was just that today, I wanna see the different. From what had been told by my cousin, if we keep reading the surah everyday, insyaAllah, we would be 'murah rezeki'. Back in Malaysia, she always do that after solah dhuha, with the hope that the 'rezeki' will flow smoothly through the day. As for me, I prayed for 'BIG TIPS' tonight!

4. After Asar, getting ready myself before going to work. I checked my twitter and FB, and loved reading all the status about 'BERSIH 2.0' ! Something different. Something interesting to ponder about. When I checked at the watch, it was already nearly 4.30pm. I was already late for work.

5. I walk to the bus stop. At first, I was thinking of walking but since I saw a bus just stop in front of me, I was immediately getting into the bus. The weather was very windy and cold, so it was definitely a good decision. After 'dipping' my ticket, I went for the seat near the front entrance. There was an old chinese lady in front of me, taking the seat opposite mine. But, just few seconds before the bus start moving, she suddenly stood up from her seat, and walked to the seat behind the driver.

Unfortunately, due to inertia and her condition as an 'old lady', she fall down right in front of me! I was shocked! Having no idea of what happening at that moment (I had my ipod played) I managed to catch the women before her head stomping on the floor. But not her back side. She was moaning loudly!

" arghhh arghhhh arghhhhh arghhhh arrrghhhhhh ...."

I was very panicked, having no idea of what to do. Then came an Australian, and another asian guy helping me with the lady. They were very fast actually. I was impressed. The bus driver stoped the bus, and helping to women too. The Australian was busy asking whether the unlucky old lady whether she was ok or not. While the bus driver, asking her whether she wanted him to call the ambulance. But the old lady keep saying ;

" argghhhh arghhhhh arghhhhh i dont know. Arghh arghh arghhh"

I only watched of what happening silently, thinking that I was late for work. 15 more mins before my shift starts. But then, the old lady finally agreed to call the ambulance which was then, causing us to stepped down from the bus since the driver had to call and wait for the ambulance to come. We had to wait for another bus to get to our destination. Unlucky for me, I had to run to the restaurant since there was no sign for any bus to come at the nearest time.

6. At night, the shop was out of sudden turn to be the busiest place ever! Damn. I was the only one working at the front. Taking orders, sending orders, preparing the drinks, cleaning up the tables and checking out! Wohoo! I believe I had walked for thousand miles. Jogging prolly the perfect adjective. But then, just realized that it was what I prayed for before going to work. Alhamdulillah. It works. Gonna try that tom morning before my another day at work - my whole day shift.

7. So, what I am trying to say here, you can plan but Allah will decides. But we can still pray so that everything would be easy for us. Whatever it is, just go with the flow. Sometimes, random things would make you appreciate life even more!

Dryer!

Sad sad sad.

Referees

I forgot to tell that we had lost in the Squash Semi final which consequenced us to be the ref for the final.

At first, it sounded very easy to me but when I was there, knowing that top 2 teams of the league were going to fight against each other, it has made me hesitated to be the ref. Why?

1. They definitely gonna question every decision that I make. So, I have to prepare with good and concrete argument so that the will be no further complain.
2. My partner ( as well as my captain ) had agree that we both are not a good ref. That was given slightly negative minded for us even before coming to the match.
3. The rest of the team members ( of the finalists ) gonna surrounding us while we are refreeing the game. So, it put more pressure to us! Especially for every decision made, it wont stop there, there is always someone else voice 'echoeing' of what we said.

So, throughout the final, I would say that was the longest 'nervous' period I had ever experienced. We have to ref 4 matches and eact match is having 5 sets. And there would be 2 'extremely' good players competing for each match. They were very professional - refreeing thir match just like watching Beng Hee competing against Azlan Iskandar! They know squash very well which means, they definitely know how to manipulate our decision.

Anyway, after the match, we both agreed that it was a good experiece for us. A very good exposure for us to get out from our comfort zone.

Like what Paud told me in the car,

" Hanafi, i'll defintiely remember this everytime I play in the semi final. You as well have to remind me about this. WE HAVE TO WIN IN THE SEMI SO THAT WE DONT HAVE TO REF THE FINAL! It was a long and scary night! "
We both laughed.

Paul, you definitely right! For the next comp, final is not an option!

The summary

I beleive, this is the most beneficial winter holidays of all through out my stay in Australia. I have decided not to go anywhere, staying in Sydney and work as much as I can. I have setted up the plan for me to achieve and currently, still have another 50% to go. It is possible, since I still have a week to go.

Those things that still in the progress:
1. Essay on Mahatma Gandhi - world peace you all!
2. Schematic planning on design - final year project is coming. Need to start preparing so I wont get shock when the sem starts
3. Flight ticket (return or one way) to Malaysia - cepatlah sale!

Thats is. 3 more to go. But then, what I find more valueable during this holidays:
1. Kasih ibu membawa ke syurga - based on true story but not mine. I am just a small part of it.
2. Rezeki ada di mana2. Usaha tuh penting.
3. Keep praying! Allah definitely wont let u down.

Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, Allahuakbar.

Besides that, the lessons about life from 'Auntie' and through my observation from what I see - PRICELESS!
1. The knowledge about parenting. This is so interesting and definitely gonna make it into practice once I am a dad! Cant wait
2. Tanda2 perempuan mengandung! Lol
3. Kita plan, Allah tentukan.
4. Kalau dah takda rezeki, takkan stay lama. Anggap je sebagai kifarah dosa. InsyaAllah, jiwa tenang.
5. My new way of study, time management, manipulating the peak time for my brain performance
6. The 'right' group

The list is actually longer than this I supposed. But, to summarise all of them, 6 is enough I guess.

Last but not least, happy moments:
1. iPad2! Plan your financial, then work on it. InsyaAllah. Setakat nih, semuanya berjaya.
2. Lots of eating. Auntie masak sedap hari2. Saya gemuk! Keluar makan dgn kawan2. Saya bertambah gemuk. Tiap2 minggu makan kek sedap2. Saya bertambah gemuk!
3. Feeling good all the time :)

Looks like they are all sweet time for me. Well, one thing for sure, set your mind positive, then things will turn to you positively. Unfortunate events in life are something that we cant run away from it but we have the power to turn it to be something meaningful to be included as part of our life. I choose to see it from my poisitive eyes, and left the negative parts as the learning process. There is no use to complain when things already happened.

Anyway, alhamdulillah for the good life :)

Same sex marriage?

Woohoo! A definite-hot-chilli-pepper topic!

I joined a conversation class at uni. And this was the topic for our second meeting. I found that this class is very interesting. It is not just helping me to polish up my English, but also, learn many things from my mates. Moreover, they are all from different countries, background and cultures which I found fascinating because I could learned from them, through their differences.

As for the today's meeting, there were 4 of us, including the mediator. She had done a great job! I felt like the class was more interesting as compared to the first meeting.

Anyway, my reason of sharing the story here is not to tell you guys of what is same sex marriage. I know it is a taboo to certain cultures and countries especially for the eastern countries. So, I am not gonna touch on that issue. What I am gonna write here is about the differences of thinking between the westeners and us, the easteners.

1. Religious belief
I think this issue has the largest gap among all. In my opinion, the westeners see the religion as just part of life. It is like an accessory to them. So, they have the choice whether to wear them or put them aside and try a new thing. Unlike us (in this case I am saying from my own context as Malaysian), as a Muslim, religion is our way or life. It is the most important thing - the pillar to keep us alive! So, everything that we do, are all based on it. We cannot run from it.

Whenever I brought up the issue of religion here, I see it as one important matter in deciding the end decision. Especially whenever we are saying about marriage, religion plays important role as it is involving the 'combination' of two different soul, to stay alive together and continuing the human population. So, marriage is actually as a tool of legalizing us to carry out this procedure into our life. That is why, we could see many ways of marriage could be seen and they are all based on the individuals faith and beleives.

However, as for the westerners, they see marriage as fulfilling the human needs, love as well as desires. They put the religion away as it is an optional thing in life. Their life is about the 'current life', no 'after life'. Therefore, they would go all out totally different from what we belief. Yes, I agree that we are also will go all out whenever it is involving about our own marriage but the way we carry it out, is not the same as they see it. We have cultures and religion. Everything is based on those two elements. Even while at the 'searching-stage' of our partner, we wont simply do things as accordance to what our desire tells us. We still have boundaries!

Unlike the westeners, they will do whatever their heart tell them to do. That explains why, they are more romantic than us! Especially while at the stage of 'tackling' the partner. Just take any of their romantic movies, the romantic scenes are all before they are getting married and the ending will always be whenever they are at church, walking away to the car with the sign 'just married'. Then the movie end, with the tought of it as a happy ending. Everyone will go out from the cinema with a smile in the face, telling their partner that is such a good movie.

But wait, are you sure that is a good movie? Have u ever thought why they end the movie 'only' at the church? Hmmm. Just look at any hollywood stars real life, their marriage wont last forever - most of them. Unlike those easteners ( take Malaysia for example) they will try to keep their marriage until their last breath. Ziana Zain, Amy Mastura, M. Nasir etc. they are all some of the examples. I know the trend is starting to change but that is happening due to the lots of 'assimilation' of westeners way of life into our life. We are less-proud of our own culture due to the large exposure about westeners which is the current trend at the moment. But if we stick to the traditional way, I beleive, our marriage institution will be the best in the world - considering religion as one of the main key in shaping our marriage processes.

2. Human equality
This is another issue that they keep arguing whenever this topic is arised. Well, if there is no religion in this world, I am defintiely gonna be first to support this. To me, we do have right to love whoever we want. We also have the right to marry anyone that we like. Just do whatever you wanna do, there will be no right and wrong. You have no one to judge you of what you are doing.

However, as a Muslim, a person who knows about the existence of God and believe that there is another life after we die, I am gonna say that this is not an option for us to choose. I know, this might be sounded biased, but this opinion is made of by considering religion as my main way of life. I beleive in Allah, and I have known about the past story of 'Kaum Hud'. And I took that as a reminder, something to hold on that 'this way of life' is against of what is being mentioned in the Quran.

If you say that that is inequality, and human rights should win in this case, please explain about the war in Iraq and Pakistan. They are all human decision - who always proclaim themselves to fight for the world peace, but is that how they definine the 'peace'? What I want to tell here is everything that is done, set, created by human is always 'imperfect'. Unlike the creation of God, they are all 'flawless'. So, whenever it is being said that same sex marriage is wrong, there must be something that is not right with it. But we human keep fighting for it with many 'human-excuses' which considered as 'reasons' so that it would be accepted by the world.

I know this might be hard to be accepted especially for those who are already in 'the scene'. But, just before I end this post, please bear in mind, Islam is easy, but we are always finding the excuses so that it will look complicated. The word 'easy' here will only come if we start to practise it as our way of life. Do what we are asked to do, leave those which are forbidden for us and insyaAllah, things will always by our side.

Lesson

I had a heart to heart talk with one that I consideres as my mom in Sydney. It is indeed bringing up a new different perception to me. And the best part, it is about myself.

Before this, I always questioned that why is that those people around me are not reacting the same like what I had done to them. Well, sometimes it is so depressing whenever the people that you are close to are not giving something the same in return. But then, after reading on many books about psychological differences in between human, then I realized that no one is the same from one another. Then I started to accept that everyone has their own specialty and weakness. So, it is unfair to compare since different people will have different way of thinking.

Then I also realized, how the parential guidance is important for ones behaviours. Different parents will have different way of raising their children. Some might think that by scolding the children would make them a 'human'. While some might think that by giving good advice is the best way if all. But then, in my opinion, it is actually depending on the situation. But what important here, parental guidance is one core element in developing the children's way of thinking and how they behave in the future.

Another thing that I realized about differences of human being is due to individual's past experience. Different person will definitely having different experience and they are learning from them. So, what ever they are doing are based on what they have experienced. That is why, people always say that experience is very important. Same goes to whenever we are looking for job. Experience is one important criteria for the employer in choosing their employee. So in this case, experiences will developing people's character in living their lives. So, it is unfair to judge them if we dont know about their background. There must be a reason for something to be done.

So, considering from what had been discussed, I realized that my character is very different from anyone that I know. I am in a way is very special. I can be a magnet to anyone. But then, there is still disadvantages that I have to consider. Not everyone is very genuine in frienship. They might be aftering for something. Judging from the differences of each one of us, I should be careful with who my friend is. As long as I know my limit and boundary, that should be fine. I have to be firm with my decision so that I will not easily get influence with those who is having bad intention to myself.

That is why, in every prayer, I keep praying that Allah will always help me in dealing with things in life. Alhamdulillah, as far as I am concerned, I am always being blessed. And I also pray that for the blessing to continously being given to me until the end of my life.

Therfore,

1. No more judging people without knowing their background
2. Always firm with yur decision
3. Allah is always there to help. Keep praying.

Psycho

I have been thinking something that probably my specialty. Yes, I am a mutant! No kidding!
So, what makes me a mutant is the ability for me to influence others by causing changes to their brain activities. In other words, it is like giving them some sort of psychological pressure that i going to lead to two things:

1. Becoming more positive person
2. Losing self confident and an extremely negative person

Well,well,well...

At the moment, I am focusing towards spreading the love to others by inducing the positive vibes to those nearby. Not everyone, those chosen one only. I love world peace and that is what I am going to create with the help of my specialty.

However, whenever seeing negative thoughts from a negative person on myself, I am thinking to try my second part of specialty. But then, I have to consider about that person's future before finalizing my decision. Hmmm. Well, probably those kind of person dont deserves future!

It is defitnitely not hard. All can be done by planting those negativity into the brain and keep repeating the same for a period of time. Besides negativity, it is might be leading to the psychological problem, and the person might end up at the mental hospital. Scary rigth? It is! That is why, I am still considering of doing it. I believe that I have one 'special target' in mind, but lets reserve it till it has gone beyond my limit.

Then,i'll update what happen.

X-men

I went to watch x-men first class last night. It is a good movie I would say. The action, technology and the storyline fits well with the overall apprearance of the movie. In fact, the storyline is much more clear and vibrant to the audience due to the integration with the history of x-men.

One thing that I am interested on after watching the movie is about the existence of mutant. I like all the superpower that they have. They are all cleverly done for each of the character and different from one another. From there, it has brought me to the think about that we human are actually mutant as well.

Why?

People might say that no, we are not. We have brain and we do all of our things using our brain. It helps us to survive in our daily life. So,there is nothing to do with mutant. Mutant is some sort of human with special power which is different from the human who has lots of potential in each one of them.

But then, does the ability that we have are the same from one another? No! Every person has different strong specialty. I would say 'specialty' because I see everyone as someone special,someone that has personal unique ability to differentiate themselves from others. For example, we would find our close friends who is very stylo eventhough he is doing medic. We might also find that our designer friend who is dressing up as normal, but could come out with great fashion design. Or maybe, a friend who could motivate us while we are down and have no one to turn to.

These are all that I consider as special ability. Not everyone is having the same special features in their life. They are all different. And this differences that makes us special at the same time, as well as a mutant! We are the chosen one to have that specialty, for us to make full use of it in order to continue our life.

That is why, it is better to work in group rather than alone. If we are doing in group, we could gather different specialty and opinions into one and then come out with an idea that could cater all of the groups existed. Working in group is defnitely more beneficial as working alone. Besides decreasing the burden that we have to face, it is also help us in planning our time more efficiently.

So people, whenever someone tells you that they wanna be like x-men, tell them that they are already one of them. Be confident with yourself, spread your wings and flyyyyyy!!!

Kasih

"sesungguhnya telah ku lihat dgn mata ku sendiri betapa kuat nya seorang ibu itu dalam membentuk keperibadian seorang anak"

"telah ku lihat juga, bagaimana seorang ibu itu yakin bahawa anakya adalah seorang yang baik walaupun ramai yang berkata buruk"

"telah ku lihat juga, seorang ibu itu sanggup melakukan apa sahaja demi anaknya"

"dan telah ku lihat juga, si ibu yg menyalahkan didikan sendiri atas masalah yang dihadapi anaknya"


Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku bersyukur kerana telah diberikan peluang untuk melihat apa yang terselindung di sebalik tubuh kecil seorang wanita lemah bergelar ibu. Aku memohon kepadamu agar segalanya dipermudahkan. Sesungguhnya, pengakhiran yg baik lah adalah sebaik2 pegakhiran. Amin.

Ya Allah, peliharalah semua kaum ibu di dunia ini. Berikan lah mereka kekuatan dalam mengharungi setiap dugaanMu ya Allah. Dan berkatilah kehidupan mereka semua dengan kehidupan yang baik. Sesungguhnya, jasa mereka memang tidak ada tolok bandingnya. Amin.

Alhamdulillah

Many things happened today! Good, bad, but mostly good. Alhamdulillah.

What?
1. Finally, the moment I've been waiting for. After re-thinking and re-considering of the good and the bad sides of having an iPad, i finally decided to get one! Yeah. Ipad2 3G- wifi 16GB. At first I was thinking of getting the 32GB but after reconsidering back my decision, I decided to take the 16GB. This is because I already have the iphone4 and the functioned is the same like iPad. The different is just iPad is made with bigger screen. But then, considering myself as an architecture student, checking all the online architecture magazines using iphone4 is very hard. The font is small. I have to constraint my eyes which means, gonna damage my damaged eyes even more. Besides, most of the architectural photos are better being viewed in large, so that it would be more clear to the eyes. Therefore, this iPad is basically for my uni-research purposes + a lil bit of entertainment :p.

2. My squash captain had given me a phone call just now and we got through to the semi-final. Alhamdulillah. We didn't managed to win last night so we have to wait for the result from the other team. It turned out that they were also having the same result as us. That's it! By just one point to separate us, we got through to the final! Weehoo

3. I got my first result of this sem. Alhamdulillah. It is just like what I have prayed for. It could be better but who cares.

4. Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah.

ibu

SubhanAllah. Hari ini semakin jelas lagi dipaparkan buat aku tentang betapa besar dan mendalamnya kasih sayang seorang ibu. Iya, untuk semua ibu yg ada di dunia. Memang betul kata peribahasa,

"seorang ibu mampu menjaga 10 orang anak, tapi 10 orang anak belum tentu mampu menjaga ibu mereka seorang"

SubhanAllah subhanAllah subhanAllah!

Bayangkan:

1. seorang ibu yg tidak dapat khabar berita tentang anaknya selama beberapa bulan, mencari update2 tertentu anaknya melalui facebook.

2. namun, apabila anaknya bukanlah seorang yg aktif dgn dunia sosial alam maya ini, apa lah sangat info yg bakal diperoleh ye dak?

3. si ibu dgn randomnya mencari rakan2 yg mungkin rapat dgn si anak melalui gambar2 yg di tag di facebook. >>> aku amat terharu dgn part nih. si ibu sanggup buat apa saja untuk mengetahui tentang keadaan si anak. walaupun beribu batu jauh terpisah, kasih sayang si ibu tetap utuh, tidak ditelan jarak! subhanAllah!

4. apabila 'wild-guess' si ibu adalah tidak tepat, si ibu meminta pula bantuan daripada si 'wild guess' untuk mendapatkan contact bg kenalan2 yg mungkin mengetahui pasal si anak. mmg sungguh terharu, si ibu will never give up! selagi tak jumpa petunjuk tentang keadaan anak, selagi itulah usaha diteruskan. tiada lagi perasaan malu. semua possibility yg ada, terus di explore!

5. semua kawan ditanya menggunakan khidmat message from facebook. cukup canggih si ibu. sanggup menguasai ilmu dunia teknologi dalam mencari keadaan sebenar anak. aku kagum!

6. setelah mencuba segala possibility yg ada, si ibu tetap tidak berpuas hati dgn keadaan si anak. si ibu nekad untuk datang mencari si anak! WOW!

ok, aku mmg terdiam, terkesima, kagum dan segala2nya tentang kasih sayang si ibu. mana ada ibu yg lupakan anak, mana ? mana? takda! ibu sanggup buat apa saja untuk si anak.

dan aku yakin, keputusan yg terakhir drp si ibu adalah kerana naluri keibuannya merasakan si anak tidak berada dalam keadaan yg sepatutnya. si ibu datang membawa kasih sayang untuk merawat luka si anak.

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya, kau berilah bantuan dan rahmat mu agar si ibu mampu tersenyum di pengakhiran cerita.

Amin

Sermon

The khutbah today was discussing about time management. The khatib told us that if you wanna have good time management, you need to set your goal and then do the planning.

He is definitely right. With no goal, we tend to waste our time. And with no planning, we are not gonna be very efficient with our time. This is what i am trying to practise in my life.

What i am gonna do is to start listing down all my targets. Differentite it with the short-term and the long-term target, so that i know what is more in need of my attention.

As for this winter holidays, ive jotted down the plan. Now it is up to me to make it real. This is definely the most efficient uni holidays!

Squash

Phewww. After quite long time for taking a break from squash, i managed to show my committment to my team yesterday. It was good, considering that i havent been to the training for more than a month. Well, i'm not fit with bad footwork in the court, i still managed to win 5 sets! Impressive rite?

But thats not the main point here. This post is dedicated to the after effect of last night games! My whole body is in pain! I know this is normal for someone for havent been to sport for quite long time but the main issue here is, now it is really hard for me to do my last assignment. Arghhh

I had two cans of ubat kaki tiga drinks from the asian groceries shop just now. N hopefully, things gonna get better after this. And at the moment, lying on my comfy bed is the best choice of all. But tonight, gonna strive my ass off for the assignment! Woohoo. Im done with the planning, and now left with me making all of them works! Good luck!

Moleskine

I went to uni bookstore looking for the moleskine. The reason is because I am desperately in need of a notebook.

Here is the plan. This notebook is not an ordinary one. The intention is to have my new best friend which means, I am gonna write down everything inside.

Basically, it is something involving with my future plan. And also, any spontanous ideas that triggering me not just for architecture, as well as about life. It is hope that whenever I flip through the book, it will enlighten myself with many of useful thoughts.

Therefore, the journey gonna begins today. And as for the first entry for this book, I'm thinking to write down of my plan for this winter. I've many things in my mind, so by making it visible, it means I have already set is as my target to achieve during the break.

And hopefully, by having this notebook, it's gonna be helpful to me in dealing with the coming days of life as an architecture student.

I called this book as "THE MOLESKINE"

silap

"setiap orang bersalah berhak diberi peluang kedua"

woohoo!

susah memang susah.

or maybe theres another quote that I think suits better

"forgive; yes, forget; not"

unless, it is purely from the heart.

but learnt from experience, i would rather be at the safe side.

being hurt once is enough!

Rupa

Rupa tuh penting

Rupa tuh la cermin diri kita
Kalo cantik, cantik la kita
Kalo buruk, buruk la kita

Tapi,
Rupa cantik belum tentu baik
Rupa buruk tidak semestinya jahat

Cuma kita kena ingat
Kalau kita malu dgn rupa kita
Itu petanda tidak baik

Kenapa perlu malu?

Riak?

Malu dan riak ada bezanya
2 cara, lain tertibnya

worry

what is the best time for you to enjoy?

i am gonna say it is when you have nothing else to worry about.

yes people, we as human, are always worrying too much about ourselves. we tend to look forward and start predicting about the future. since the future is beyond our scope of knowledge, that makes us more worried since we dont know of what's gonna happening next.

this 'worry' feeling has its pro and cons.

worrying too much is only gonna make us:

1. tired because we wont feel comfortable with our current situation. our brain keep working for nothing. most of the energy just gone like that

2. sad. it push us to the extreme where we are going to start focusing on the negativity rather than, being positive with ourselves.

3. not productive. when everything seems against us, we start to loose our self-confident then loosing interest in what we are doing. we are not at our best whenever we are doing something. the result will not going to be good too.

so people, in this case, we need to know how to control our 'worrying' level. start reversing its negativity into something that is positive to us.

"dont focus on the problem, focus on the solution"

for example, we have assignment submission in three days time but we still have not started with it until we left only 24 hours for the submission. we start to worry that we are not gonna finish it on time.

as for this case, stop worrying, and start thinking on ways to solve the problem. your problem is how to finish your essay in 24 hours time. so, u should start from the beginning, looking at the main root of the problem. as for the essay, what is the topic? and start researching on it. at this point of time, put away you 'worrying' feeling, as far as possible. and keep working.

maybe u can turn on some music to get yourself distracted from thinking about the problem.

then start planning your time carefully. make it visible to the eyes, and plan what you are going to do for every hours. go all out. make sure u achieve your target. if you dont, try harder in the next hour!

based on my experience, the key principles for reversing the negativity of 'worry' lies upon:

1. 'focus on the solution'

2. 'push yourself to the maxima'

3. distract yourself from thinking about the problem

be confident that you can do it coz u dont know your limit. go all out!

takut

Masa tadika dulu, rasa takut gila nak masuk darjah satu sbb kawan2 cakap cikgu garang

Masa darjah satu takut nak masuk darjah 2 sebab belajar lagi susah

Lepas tuh bila dengar pasal upsr pulak, adoiiii takut takut takut!

Abes upsr pulak rasa takut nak masuk tingkatan satu sbb dah berbeza fasa sekolah.

bila dah abes form 1, takut pulak nak amek pmr.

dh abes pmr, mak aihhh cuak weyh nak masuk form 4. soalan semua subjektif.

abes form 4, kecuakan spm la pulak.

lepas spm, cuak kalau tak dapat smbung study.

dah dapat smbung, takut weyh kalo tak berjaya dapat degree.

bila dah ada degree, still cuak kalo tak dapat masters.

itu kisah satu.

ini kisah dua.

masuk darjah satu, mesti takut nmpak doktor gigi.

dah abes tuh, takut pulak dgn injection2 yg bermacam2.

masa nak masuk darjah tiga, nampak kawan sunat.

mak aihhhhhhhh! ngilu beb! ada potential hilang 'senjata'!

bila dh lepas, cuak dgn BCG pulak.

ini kisah tiga

bila umur dah semakin meningkat, takut laa pulak nk pikul tanggungjawab berkeluarga.

kita memang sentiasa hidup dalam ketakutan kan?

The ending

Wehoo. Yesterday was the last day for my design this sem. Feel releived! It felt like ive just throwing away a big massive stone from my head! Pheww

As a reward for myself for not having enough sleep through the week, a gloria jeans ice coffe + triple mud choc cake after i stepped down from the bus before heading back to my hse. Then, 4pcs kentucky fried chicken to make it more meaningful! Wohoo

Eventhough the design was just so-so (im hoping to at least get a pass. Amin) but who said that i cant enjoy myself. Because to me, ive done my very best. In fact, ive learned a lot during this sem. An experience with a great tutor, a well known architect, Tim Greer, is definitely has given another different view for me in seeing architecture.

"Architecture is not a destination, it is a journey".

Well, i believe in that quote. And km definitely preparing myself for a better semester after the break.

As for now, it's holidah baybehhh!! Yes, i will not forget to have funnnn! Weehoo

Pertolongan

Saya whatsapp kawan saya. Saya tau dia sedang nyenyak tidur menikmati keindahan malam yg sejuk.

Owh gmbar kecil di atas itu adalah apple crumble gloria jeans! Sedap gila!!

Sekelumit cinta

Hari nih rasa free sikit. Sempat pergi squash then masa balik tuh terfikir nk makan apa malam nih. Pergi oriental, jumpa sos masam manis ABC. Then teringat ada udang kat rumah. So apa lagi, call mak tanya mcm mana nk masak 'sweet & sour prawan with a pinch of love'! Wah gituh!

Bahan2 nya:
1. Udang
2. Fish cakes
3. Bawang besar sebijik
4. Bawang putih 1/2 bijik
5. Minyak utk menumis
6. Sedikit serbuk kunyit
7. Sedikit garam
8. Dan sos ABC MASAM MANIS!

Cara2nya:
1. Gaulkan udang dgn garam dan kunyit. Biarkan sebentar agar rasanya sebati
2. Panaskan kuali + minyak
3. Tumiskan 1/2 bawang besar + semua bawang putih. Biarkan sehingga naik bau yum yum ke hidung!
4. Masukkan udang tadi. Owh aku masukkan jugak cili kering. Biar berapi sikit!
5. Goreng goreng dan goreng sehingga udang separuh 3/4 masak.
6. Curahkan setengah botol sos ABC MASAM MANIS!
7. Kacau masakkan agar rasa sebati. Biarkan sehingga sos masak.
8. Dah masak? As in nampak gelombang2 udara membuak2? Ok bagus. Masukkan lebihan bawang besar tadi. Yg nih korang potong bulat mcm bentuk cincin.
9. Kacau dan biarkan sebentar dalam 2 minit.
10. Ok dah siappppp! Boleh makan!!!

Pastuh ada pulak grilled chicken yg crispy tuh. Mak aihhhhh. Terangkat angkat smpai sekarang nih.

AUM!

Journey

We've got to choose whether black or white

If black, to the left
But if white, to the right

Black and white are contrasting each other

We still need to choose

In continuing our journey, we need courage, confident and intelligent
Not forgotten, faith

Good luck!

Visit

A visit by a friend on Saturday!
Woohoo. Congratulation on your new job!

Anyway, what is confident?

1. The ability to talk in front of the public?
2. Having good look?
3. Many friends around?
4. Smart?

Well, to me it is more than. It is the ability of having faith with yourself. It is more about self-eateem. Thats y, we people are always having ups and downs.

We are at top whenever we have high self esteem and at the bottom when the confident level is low.

So, dont ever think that u dont have any self-cofident. Dont be sad if you r not as lucky as others. Because to me, what important is how you deal with your feeling. Because it will then lead u to boosting up your self-esteem and then, be confident with yourself.

Do whatever u wanna do. Ask help whenever u can find ways to solve. And the rest, just enjoy life to the fullest!

malaslah!

"macam mana nk buat keje? takde mood la"

phewww. mesti selalu kan? yes exactly!

so here are few tips in solving those issues. basically, this is what i had been doing for these few days...

1. abeskan semua kehendak nafsu korang! (LOL) in this case apa yg aku maksudkan adalah nafsu2, nak tgk series, tgk movies, semua tuh la. macam aku, mesti tgk 'nora elena' dulu, pastuh tgk 'juvana'. then bila dh menyesal, terus start buat keje.

but but but...

jangan la nafsu sampai nk layan smpai 10 movies tiap2 kali before start keje. aiyoo. kalo cmtuh, smpai kawan ko grad, ko pon still tgk movie!

2. planning. ini mmg amat membantu. sebelum korang start buat keje, buat plan.

"by this time (insert certain period), i must have finished this chapter"

n remember to make it visible to your eyes. this means that u guys have to write it down on paper, n paste it on front of you. most of the people, they often forget what they've planned. (yes, i;m one of the victims). so by having the list on the paper, it is constantly reminding you and putting pressure for you to work extra harder.

3. reward yourself. yep, after finish one task, reward yourself with something that you like. it acts as the booster for us to continue the same effort for the next task.

4. call mak suruh buatkan smayang hajat. pastuh korang pon buat skali.

5. owh owh owh. malu bertanya sesat jalan. tanya la sebanyak mana orang ko nk tanya. pastuh pandai2lah korang sesuaikan mengikut situasi sendiri.

sekian sahaja untuk kali ini.

first

well, i'm sure most of us a familiar with anwarhadi, a very famous vlogger. here is the latest video by him.

sincerely, when i first see the link in the FB, i didnt expect it to be very 'touched'. well, it is just a video. nothing more.

but then, when i played the video, n listened to the story by the people in the video, i cried. i cried and cried.

mak, abang sayang mak. cuma tak biasa nk luah2kan. tp, percayalah, mak lah yg paling utama dalam semua!

Naik Angin!

ok. i feel like to share something here.

too much design makes me go crazy, n here i come, with one crazy thought! hmm... (tanduk dah keluar)

i stayed up until 7am at uni yesterday, figuring out the strategy for my design project. yes, design always the hardest thing for me. i could score in my electives, but not design. i still couldnt get the touch. still searching still searching.

anyway, i had my good nite sleep at around 8am. then woke up at 1pm, since i have meeting with my studio mate. it was very helpful. Lucy, that was her name. I talked to her after studio last friday and was asking if she could spend some of her time to help me with my design. the problem with me, i still not very clear of what am i doing. my tutor keep telling me that i have lots of idea, but none of them are specifically well-researched.

so, before heading back, i asked Lucy whether she could help me and she responded yes! Monday at 2pm. I went to her place with high hopes and went back with satisfaction! Thank Lucy, now it is getting clear. Since I was still unsure whether I am heading to the right end, I asked her for another 'special-design-consultation' on Tuesday morning, at her place as well. N she said yes with condition that I have to show her my progress and write it on paper. She want something that when she read, she could straight away get the idea of what am I doing. And all of the issues that I am proposing need to be written just in one sentence! the max I could go is 2 sentences! She sounded like my tutor, seriously! LOL

well, thanks Lucy for that. Such a nice Mauritius lady with a kind heart. I am thinking of treating her Malaysian lunch someday!

Anyway, back to the video I posted above. Today, after had my dinner, i went straight to bed. I felt like my brain is not functioning at its best due to unorganized sleep pattern. So, 2 hours nap prolly could make my brain adjusting back to its circle, and be at its best. At 1030pm, I woke up, took my shower...

Then, here came the part of the video.

" pakaian istimewa, berangin-angin keliling...."

Kain pelikat time people! Nak berangin-angin keliling! hahaha

Just do your best!

It’s not always easy to know which path to follow, which decision to make, or what to do. Life is a series of new horizons, new hopes, new days, and changes that come to you. And we all need some help with these things from time to time. Remember these things: Dream it. Do it. And discover how special you are. Be positive, for your attitude will affect the outcome of many things. Ask for help when you need it; seek the wisdom the world holds and hold on to it. Make some progress every single day. Begin. Relieve. And become. Give yourself all the credit you’re due; don’t short change your qualities, your abilities, or any of the things that are so unique about you. Remember how precious life can be. Imagine. Invest the time it takes to reach out for your dreams; it will bring you happiness that no money on earth can buy. Don’t be afraid; no mountain is too big to climb if you do it at your own pace.

What’s the best thing to do? That’s simple: Do Your Best. And everything else will fall into place. -Collin McCarty- (source)