Naik Angin!

ok. i feel like to share something here.

too much design makes me go crazy, n here i come, with one crazy thought! hmm... (tanduk dah keluar)

i stayed up until 7am at uni yesterday, figuring out the strategy for my design project. yes, design always the hardest thing for me. i could score in my electives, but not design. i still couldnt get the touch. still searching still searching.

anyway, i had my good nite sleep at around 8am. then woke up at 1pm, since i have meeting with my studio mate. it was very helpful. Lucy, that was her name. I talked to her after studio last friday and was asking if she could spend some of her time to help me with my design. the problem with me, i still not very clear of what am i doing. my tutor keep telling me that i have lots of idea, but none of them are specifically well-researched.

so, before heading back, i asked Lucy whether she could help me and she responded yes! Monday at 2pm. I went to her place with high hopes and went back with satisfaction! Thank Lucy, now it is getting clear. Since I was still unsure whether I am heading to the right end, I asked her for another 'special-design-consultation' on Tuesday morning, at her place as well. N she said yes with condition that I have to show her my progress and write it on paper. She want something that when she read, she could straight away get the idea of what am I doing. And all of the issues that I am proposing need to be written just in one sentence! the max I could go is 2 sentences! She sounded like my tutor, seriously! LOL

well, thanks Lucy for that. Such a nice Mauritius lady with a kind heart. I am thinking of treating her Malaysian lunch someday!

Anyway, back to the video I posted above. Today, after had my dinner, i went straight to bed. I felt like my brain is not functioning at its best due to unorganized sleep pattern. So, 2 hours nap prolly could make my brain adjusting back to its circle, and be at its best. At 1030pm, I woke up, took my shower...

Then, here came the part of the video.

" pakaian istimewa, berangin-angin keliling...."

Kain pelikat time people! Nak berangin-angin keliling! hahaha

Just do your best!

It’s not always easy to know which path to follow, which decision to make, or what to do. Life is a series of new horizons, new hopes, new days, and changes that come to you. And we all need some help with these things from time to time. Remember these things: Dream it. Do it. And discover how special you are. Be positive, for your attitude will affect the outcome of many things. Ask for help when you need it; seek the wisdom the world holds and hold on to it. Make some progress every single day. Begin. Relieve. And become. Give yourself all the credit you’re due; don’t short change your qualities, your abilities, or any of the things that are so unique about you. Remember how precious life can be. Imagine. Invest the time it takes to reach out for your dreams; it will bring you happiness that no money on earth can buy. Don’t be afraid; no mountain is too big to climb if you do it at your own pace.

What’s the best thing to do? That’s simple: Do Your Best. And everything else will fall into place. -Collin McCarty- (source)

Cita-cita

Bila pikir2 semula, zaman kanak2 mmg zaman yang paling best. Padanla hujan pon ada buat lagu pasal childhood.

"alangkah indahnya dunia apabila kita....(dah lupa lirik)"

Masa kecik2 dulu, aku nih degil. Mmg tak dgr cakap. N mmg jenis simpan dal semua. Tp, takdalah smpai buat aku jadik psycho. Tidak tidak. Semua yg aku simpan2 dalam tuh sebenarnya aku jadikkan sebagai pemangkin utk aku berjaya. Poyokan?

Tp mmg tak tipu. Aku mmg simpan dalam, pastuh aku mesti buat azam yg suatu hari nanti, orang yg buat aku rasa tak puas hati tuh, biar dia sendiri malu. Jahatkan?

Tp apa la kita nk expect dari budak2 kan? Diorang cuma nak everything to be in their own ways. Pernah sekali tuh aku ada kawan. Mmg close friends la. Mmg baik. Aku pon anggap dia kawan baik aku. Tp, ntah mcm mana ntah, bila dia dapat kawan baru, terus dh tak kawan dgn aku.

Sedih. Tp nak buat mcm mana. Aku ada je kawan lain. Tp bila someone yg ko anggap best fren, tetiba dh kawan biasa2 je dgn kau, mesti kecewa kan? So, start dari hari tuh, aku mmg dh tak percaya orang. Mmg susah la nk korek rahsia ape2 pasal aku. Aku nih bolehlah dikira sbg penyimpan rahsia agung. Hehe

Tp aku rasa, kejadian tuh byk membentuk aku spt hari ini. Aku lebih suka berdikari. Mmg tanak bergantung pada orang. Walaupun bebas, tp susah woo! Mental kena kuat. Hati kena tabah. Iman kena tinggi woo! Kalo la ada option, mmg aku tak pilih cara nih.

Ok, option mmg ada. Tp, kepercayaan aku nih susah nk bagi. Ntahlah. Aku lagi suka keep things to myself. So takde la rasa insecure ke apa. Bab2 mcm nih, mmg aku jaga betul2.

Anyway, berbalik kepada tajuk utama kita ( haha panjang berjela lan intro. Dah mcm satu karangan !). 1st cita2 aku nak jadik cikgu. Aku tak ingat kenapa. Tp, aku nak sgt jadik cikgu. Mungkin sbb ku nmpak profession tuh suatu yg baik dan indah. Atau mungkin tuh je la yg aku tau masa kecik2 dulu. Tp, for the record, aku nak jadik cikgu!

Pastuh tukar pulak jadik lawyer. Alasan sbb aku hebat bercakap! Haha. Perasan mmg tak hengatt! Aku mmg suka kalo bab lawan2 mulut nih. Top in the list. Berpidato. Semua tuh aku buat masa sekolah dulu.

Then bil darjah 4, aku ubah nak jadik arkitek. Ada satu hari tuh, cikgu aku suruh kitorang semua lukis rumah. Dia bagi la gmbar rumah kat setiap orang. Aku dapat rumah minangkabau. Lukisan aku mmg cantik masa tuh. Org laen semua buat biasa2 je, tp aku siap kira dgn pembaris! Atap bumbung tuh pon aku lukis in details! Impressive kan? Tuh yg tetiba aku cakap nak jadik arkitek lah!

Smpai la ke sekolah menengah, n skarang kat uni. Aku pon dh dapat degree dalam architecture dah pon. Skarang, siap smbung buat master lagi. Orang bila tau nih, mesti terus ingat akhirnya akh berjaya dapat apa yg aku buat kan?

Hmm. Aku rasa tak. Masa form4 dulu, aku pernah dalam dilema nk pilih kelas business atau kelas sains. Masa form3 aku dh confirm nak masuk business. Tp masa f5, tetiba ego tinggi, aku pilih jugak sains. Smpai SPM, alhamdulillah semua ok. Tp one thing, aku mmg kena push diri aku smpai limit dalam subjek sains. Takde honeymoon.

Bila masa dapat scholarship dulu pon, aku ada 2 pilihan. Business n architecture. Business local, tp PNB. byk tuh duit dia bagi. Oversea architecture, JPA. Hmm sbb ego jugak, aku pilih buat architecture. Ok masa nih aku mmg dah suka gila2 kat business. Tp sbb gila glamour, harulah aku pilih oversea. Weyh, bukan senang nak naek kapal terbang! Lagi2 budak kampung. Rumah kayu, buruk pulak tuh. Mestilah nak oversea!

Tp aku kurang cerdik masa tuh. Aku tak studi dulu apa yg aku kena face nnt. Tuhla, masa buat folio kerjaya dulu tuh aku copy n paste je. Haihh.

Then bila dh kat uni, tuhdiaaaa! Baru aku tau mmg susah nak jadik arkitek weyh! Dulu prinsip aku, ko bg lah apa2, aku mmg boleh buat! Yea, aku mmg bolej buat tp adoiiii! Mcm nak mati tau tak?

N malam nih. Keinginan aku utk involve dgn business datang lagi. Semua nih sbb masa present tadi, tutor aku kata aku lg fokuskan from the economical factor, not architecture. Hmm. Betul jugak dia kata.

So skarang nih, yea, aku bole buat apa je. Plan aku nak abes kan master nih cepat2. Balik aku nak apply keje kat broadcasting company pastuh malam nk amek night class/ weekend class buat MBA.

As for now, work hard work hard work hard! Aku tak smart, so mmg kena work hard je la. Tuh yg sanggup pikul beg 10kg pegi uni pukul 12 tgh malam. Gigih? Terpaksa...

IQRA

One key point if you want to excel in what you are doing at the moment...

1. READ

have u ever have the feeling that you are lazy to read. just start reading any materials about your current project. this is just to make your brain to start developing and exploring ideas that we are looking for. you'll be amazed how your brain could actually works. this is due to the conscious and unconscious mind principles.

i. conscious mind includes everything that is inside of our awareness. this is the aspect of our mental processing that we can think and talk about a rational way. this includes such things such as the sensations, perceptions, memories, feeling and fantasies inside our current awareness. (source)

ii. unconscious mind is part of the mind which gives rise to a collection of mental phenomena that part of the mind which gives rise to a collection of mental phenomena that manifest in a person's mind but which the person is not aware of at the time of their occurrence. this can be seen as the source of night dreams and automatic thoughts (those appear without apparent cause), etc. (source)

so basically, when we have started reading our project materials, our brain will start processing all the informations. there will be some that we are not sure or maybe not really understand,but it is ok, that is where the 'unconscious mind' will do their part.

have u ever experienced that while u watching TV, then there is a sudden moment that you get a lot of ideas on certain project that you are currently working on? then u just left the TV and immediately looking for papers so that you could write it down. yep, that shows your unconscious mind had done their part.

usually, the idea that triggered by the unconscious mind is always the creative idea u ever imagine of. unconscious mind is actually your creative tool. it will not let u down.

however, it is not gonna work if there are not enough information to be processed. that is why, READING is vital. it gives some guidelines for your 'unconscious mind' to based its research on before generating ideas that are going to help you with your current project.

so here, what can I say about this is we are using our 'conscious mind' to gather as many information and then the 'unconscious mind' will do their part. both are important in generating a great creative idea.

therefore, what else are u waiting for? IQRA'?

my 'this way'

sometimes, when i look at someone else, it gives me a feeling of to be like that someone. it is always like that.

when i see someone who is good with communication skills, i imagine myself as that person

when i see someone who is fashionable, i wanna be like that person too

when i see someone who is popular, i imagine myself to be popular as well.

as human, we will never be satisfied with what we have. we ask for more. we want everything that looks good to our eyes. we become greedy! then we forget of what we already have. something that we have, not others. we forget our specialties. we keep focusing on others.

we have to remember, if we keep pushing ourselves to be someone else, we are not gonna succeed! they are born to be 'that way', and we are born' this way'. 'that way' and 'this way' are two separate ways, which gonna lead us to different end. so, if we are following the different way, the burden is on us. we have to push ourselves extremely hard to reach at the end. however, if we choose to follow our 'this way', it is an advantage for us. it is being done for us, we are walking along the 'current'.

so people, look for your specialty(ies). keep digging it and make full use of it! explore and explore. as for me, i'm still browsing around, looking for the right spot to stop. i have lots in mind. it just the matter of chances. but most important is, i need to keep myself on the right track, my 'this way'. whennever i'm in 'this way' anything that struck me during my journey would be good for me. i just need to keep searching until i found the thing that suits me the best.

as for now, keep browsing! look for chances!

strong?

have u ever feel that u are a very strong person?

yes, we are all very strong or should i say, we could be strong.

being strong is an option. we can choose whether to be or not to be. as a human, we are not prone to obstacles or challenges in life. these things are the one that keep pushing us, distracting our progress in life sometimes and wanting us to be strong!

but, not everyone has the courage to stand up and fight. i believe that is because there is no one to guide them whenever they are down. anyway, i'm thinking of sharing some of my thoughts regarding this issue. i love to read motivational and self inspirational books. so, here are the compilation of here and there, of what i found and been practiced and also, some of the advices that i had shared with friends.

1. get back to Allah

this is always my 1st step whenever someone is in the hard condition. to some people, this might not relevant as people nowadays are usually those who believe only what they have seen. i am not against it neither supporting it. it is an individual opinion.

as for myself, it must be an advantage since i have got more exposure in the religious issue during my early childhood. no, my parents are not those religious people. i mean, they are religious, but not those with the title as religiuos people. not ustaz or ustazah. however, my mom loved to watch those islamic tv shows especially ehwal islam and the one before friday prayers on tv3. so, she knows many religious things from there and being a mom, she would share everything that she got from the show to us. that is probably the starting point.

besides, being close with my religious teacher(s) was probably another advantage.

so, those probably the things that shaping the way i see my world. alhamdulillah, the hidayah is still with me and i pray that it is forever with me until the end of my life.

back to the topic, people nowadays only believe what can be seen by their eyes. if not, they would just say it is a lie. well well...

"can u feel the air? "

"yes"

"can u see it?"

"no"

"so, whats the different?'

same here. when we get back to Allah, we definitely gonna get the response. it is just the matter we are able to see it or not. usually, u need to use your 'mata hati', rather than your normal eyes.

2. ask for help!

there must be reasons for all of us to be here, to live in this world together, not just by our own. i know, for some, we prefer to stay away from everyone around us. or just like those matsalleh always said;

"mind your own business"

it is true. why shouldt we care about others if no one care about us? you live your own life, and i'll handle mine.

but that is not always the case.

1. in school, our teacher keep telling us to work in group. when we work in group, we share all the burdens together.

2. same thing happen in work. we work together with our colleagues. we share all the burdens together.

so, as for these two cases, working together is always the best option.

" we share all the burdens together"

but wait, that only happen, if and only if, we managed to find good group members or good colleagues. but how are we gonna determine that?

they are those who managed to understand us better. this is very complex as not everyone could understand all the people. it takes time for us to discover.

but then, for some, there are people with this specialty. they know of what to say and where to say. sometimes, they are able to come out with the options that are not in our mind at all. something that is outside of the box. something that we cannot see, but clearly visible to them.

as for me, that person is always my mom. eventhough her academic background stopped after SPM, but that is not the measuring point. sometimes, even a small kid is able to come out with better solution than the adults. remember Hang Nadim? Singapura di langgar todak? this is what i called as God's gift!

so, my point here is, if u are down, go share it with someone else. someone that understand u and someone that you trust. tell them all your worries. ask for help. then listen to what they say before start applying it into your current condition. just remember, whenever we are down, we are at the bottom of our rationality. that's why we need someone else's opinion to help us to get back on track.

3. mind set

this is the last thing that we should do. mind set is the most powerful things that every human has.

what made Einstein's a great person? it is his mindset. he set himself to be a great person.

what made Siti Nurhaliza a great singer? it is her mindset and disciplines.

what made Donald Trump a successful industrialist in real estate development? it is his mindset and disciplines too!

so, here if we set our mindset to be a successful person, and disciplined ourselves, insyaAllah we are able to achieve anything in life. dont look small on the power on mindset. it could do more of what the computer can do. it gives us the freedom of thinking which is the computer does not have.

therefore, to be a strong person, we need to set our mindset to become a strong person. keep telling yourself that you can do it. tell it more everyday. so that in the end, it would become a habit where you dont have to remind yourself about it anymore.

weird

' weyh aku nak jadik cikgu la '

' no '

' apsal pulak? '

' ko dah bazirkan duit tax mak dgn ayah aku bayar '

' eh mana ada. aku nk bantu lagi ramai untuk berjaya '

' no. when u back, talk to my mom '

in my life, i guess this is the first someone who have the guts to say no to what i'm gonna do with my future. it is actually a compliment. thank u. n i really think that little conversation was very special and meaningful.

why?

i guess the way it is being said. usually, whenever we are facing the rejection, we will feel bad. but not this time. i felt like someone is really care about me. care about my future and care about what am I gonna be after this uni-things are done.

and that was from one of my besfriends. i guess five years of living together, in the same house and the same dorm had really made us knowing each other so well.we might not realize it but it is in the blood bro!

u know what, no matter how long we havent talked to each other, once we do, it is definitely a good one! HAPPY BIRTHDAY bro!

p/s: u r now a lawyer and im still a student! arghh

Necessity

I always looking for ways to skip doing my laundry but then, it is always a failure. Why? Doing laundry is the necessity. Something that is a must and u definitely cannot get rid of it.

But then, if mom's here, everything is possible!

Anyway, back to the topic, what is necessity. It is something that u have to face, u have to go through or something that need your attention. The sad thing is, there is no way for u to run away from it. For example, food, accomodation, electricity and nowadays, internet!

We barely to live without them around. Yes, we are able to survive if they are not around but are things gonna be done efficiently? Are u gonna be able to cold yourself down if there's no fan during a hot day? Or will u be able to do your reaearch for your assigmnet if there is not internet?

Yes u still can do it BUT in the HARD way!

Looking back to where we are at the moment, a very competative world where people are fighting with each other by not having physical contact, we need to be efficient and fast in anything that we do.

Efficient. That'a the right word.

So that explains why am I here. Waiting 40mins for the dryer so that i could finish my laundry just within 2.5hrs! Rather than drying it outside for the whole day, and setting boundary for myself as i have to come back to pick them up at the end of the day. Worst scenario, when it is suddenly rain, they would only left wet outside if i am not be able to run and save them.

No. I'm not saying i dont dry my shirts outside. If i managed to start my day as early as 7am, why not? And if i'm just gonna be at home the whole day, why not? But not today. Ive to minimized the time spent for this so that more could be given for my assignments. (current mode: critical time for my research. This is the only turning point that i have)

So by considering the situation that i am facing at the moment, i would rather spend aud6.80, then get this laundry things away from my mind. I dont have to thing about it until next time. In a way, i am practising about giving more space for my brain to work on my assignment.

This concept is what i call by eliminating those small things for better concentration on bigger issues.

So people, always ve efficient with your time. Yes, some might said drying your laundry in a laundry shop is not a necessity. But relate back with u current situation. In my case it is a yes. Besides, its getting dark outside which means there is possibility of raining today.

And lastly, money is not everything but u need money for everything.

Blessed

What a great day yesterday!

I beleived that was the most productive day for as for this month.

We had a surprised belated birthday celebration for a colluege at the restaurant. The best part was the food! We had cake, tiramisu, chocolate, chips, mee goreng singapore n FUN FUN FUN! It has been a while since the last time I had that.

And later at night, i went for series marathon - noraelena bofore start with my assigment. There were 8 ep, n i managed to finish 7 of them since i have wathed the 1st ep earlier. Peer pressure through twitter. All my friends were wathing it, so i dont want to be left alone for not watching it. Lol

Anyway, what am i gonna talk about as for today's reflection is I am blessed witj good friends around me. Alhamdulillah.

Good friends are really hard to get. They cannot be bought by money neither with any materials. They are not materialistic, becoming your friend, with the hope to get some of your wealth?

Anyway, yesterday was a good day. Hopefully, the same thing gonna happen today. Before i finish, here is the list of the yesterdays excitement;

1. Tiramisu
2. Apple cake
3. Sambal belacan
4. Finished with my essay!
5. Good companies. Muah

Random thought

How about writing short stories? Then novel? Series?

Sounds good.

Then probably i could publish my own book.

Supertalented thepretender?

coincidence

so what do u do whenever u feeling down?

pergilah mengaji.

pergilah doa mintak Allah tenangkan hati

pergilah sembahyang

well well well

i'm not saying that THOSE solutions given above are NOT the answer. In fact, they are what I am normally do when I am down. They are not an option, a msut! something compulsory for us who are just human beings. So in this case, I want you guys to get a lil bit further, and explore other potential solutions that has potential to cheer u up!

why does this kind of issue is being raised?

haha. my design proposal was not like what i have expected! I was feeling down right after I left TZG office just now.

got it?

anyway, let me share with u guys the story. the one that probably becoming something to inspire while any of us are feeling down.

1. First story

i went straight to the Surry Hills mosque for my Maghrib prayers. Less people there since it was already 6.00pm. But some unexpected incident happened.

( current mode : DOWN! but i covered it with my sweet smile. nobody could detect it. remember, im the pretender? )

so what happened? a random guy acted very very very friendly approached me and suddenly gave me a very tight hug! I was surprised! very very surprised. note to be taken here, he hugged me not once, not twice but 3 times! i was speechless. just standing there n pretending that i'm a friendly person as well. well, thepretender.

then he asked me for zakat, so that he could buy his dinner. unfortunately, my wallet was empty, just left with some malysian n singaporean notes. not gonna work rite? I try to be positive here, i believed he was someone sent by Allah to share some of His love. Hugging me while I was very very very down was just something 'warm' and could at least pulling my sadness away for a while. moreover, the incident happened just next to the mosque's main gate with few other people outside - i dont think he has negative intention on me. Prolly some might said that was just the tactic for money but then, i am not hesitated to give some if I have at that time.

coincidence? getting hugged by stranger, asking for money, empty wallet?

owh that stranger just said thank u to me with a smile after i said i dont have any cash at the moment. Impressive. I was speechless.

so, what I am trying to tell u guys here, BE POSITIVE. ALWAYS!

2. Go out, have some fun!

It was not acted like what I am for the past few weeks. My life was boring and it ranging around uni - my room - work - squash (now i rarely going for squash since i was very busy with uni works). boring it is!

so what i did just now, i suddenly felt like to reward myself with something that could cheer me up. what?

FOOD!

it was randomed. i checked my FB, and realized a wall post from a friend of mine. n it was posted two minutes before i checked the FB. coincidence?

so, i straight away give him a call, n yeah, we went to paddys for soft shell crab, easyway for large honeydew green tea with aloevera and also, rump steak at gung ho! FOOD SPREE it is. not forgotten, another random thing was enjoying ourselves at world karaoke for an hour? wow wow wow!

many random things made me go crazy tonight.

so all of these were coincidentally happened?

yup, but it happened with reasons i guess.

let me take you back to the early part of this story.

i went for maghrib at surry hills mosque. and yes, i prayed to Allah for some guidance. As a normal human being, there is time that we are down, and no one to turn to. but hey, Allah is always there. He is the most compassionate and merciful. He is the one that will never turn us down.

"He has His own plan for us. It is just the matter on how we interpret it."

so, still coincidence? hmmm

Sayang

Kenapa nih sayang?

I dh sacrifice untuk u ok
I tak tido
I kurang makan
I tak pergi squash

Semua untuk u tau sayang!

Tp nih ke yang u bagi semula kat i?
I sedih i sedih
I dah tatau dah mcm mana nak layan u lagi
U nih over!

U know what
Tiap2 malam i pikir pasal u je
Tiap2 siang pon i pikir pasal u jugak
U tgk mata i nih
Dh naek lebam dah!
Haihhh

Pls la sayang
Tolong la i kali nih
Datang kat i eh?
Malam nih pls
Pls pls pls
I dah tak larat dah

Orang kata penantian satu seksaan
Mmg skarang nih i dah terseksa
Jgn la seksa i lagi sayang
Pls eh?

Ke u nak i pegi tido skarang
N tinggalkan u sorang?
Baru u tau!!!
Asyik i je kena pikir pasal u
Biar u pulak yg rasa
Huh

Tp tp tp
U mana ada hati perutkan?
U kan zalim
U kan jahat
U kan suka tgk i susah

Ok ok im sorry ok
I tak cakap buruk2 pasal u lagi
Marilah sayang
Datang kat i ok?
Marila laa
Ala bucuk bucuk
Come to papa meh
Alalalalala

I tunggu tau ....

......

Haaaa jgn nak merepek!
Orang kata, kalo kita nak sesuatu dtg kat kita, kita kena panggil dia dgn gelaran yg baek. Pastuh kena layan dgn baek. So in this case, im calling my 'creative idea' to come to me and help me to solve my design concept. Jgn nk pikir bukan2! Nakal nih!

...marilah sayang....

Last minutes

It may not a good thing to do
I know

I have finished with the planning
It just a matter to start researching
And compiling them as a report

Lazyness will definitely killing me!

Any words of wisdom?

Bismillah...

Morning morning morning
My mom always told me

" if u wanna wake early in the morning, remind it to yourself before going to sleep. Then read your prayers. "

And it always work!

In addition to that,

I did a breathing exercise, and make sure the air circulation inside my room is working. This is to make sure that I will get enough fresh oxygen while I am asleep.

How?

1. Open the window. Just enough for the oxygen to circulate inside.

It is too cold outside. Plus, I am afraid of theif. It is dangerous!

2. Turn on the fan! This is just to make sure that there is the existence of air movement.

Then?

Breathing exercise. Do very deep breathing exercise for few times. Make sure that u could feel the 'cold'* oxygen pass through your nose. Then imagine it goes to your brain and circulate into the whole body through your blood movement.

Dont forget to set your alarm just in case.

So whats the result?
1. I woke up at 6am.
2. I felt fresh eventhough I slept at 2.30am.
3. I dont have heavy dream. (dreaming shows that your brain is working. Thus, if u r dreaming something 'heavy', it makes your brain tired hence leading to a very tiring day when u wake up later)

Lets work towards a better n healthy lifestyle!

Story

Everyone has their own story to tell
Whats yours?

I walk alone by myself
I know it is hard
But it is fun
It is not a problem
It is a challenge
I take challenge
I do challenge

I know that in the end
I'll manage to finish
Of what i've started

What's yours?

Blind spot

This internet thingy really has turned me off. I need something to recharge back all my creative energy.

Here I am. With new thing to ponder.

The Blind Spot!

We all have our own spot. We dont realize it. Thats why, we need someone to guide us, to help and tell us, about things that we dont manage to see.

Either a total blind or half clear.

In both circumstances, if we keep going without proper direction, we would end up somewhere far away from where we suppose to land. Scary it is.

But thats life. And since we are all human being and 'protecting our ego' is always 1st in the list, it is somehow has become part of our life. That is why, it is not something 'unfamiliar' for us. It is what we do, it is our life!

So, I know it is hard to tame our ego but that is not something impossible to be done. Take your time. Human needs time to change.

Is there any quick way to get away from this type of life?
Yeah. Teach yourself to say good things of others and dont always jump to the conclusion. Forgiveness is always the best policy.

Jimmy

Aku: Hey Jimmy, so when u r doing ur work, u really concentrate on it?

Jimmy: Yea coz if not, it is not really efficient. It would take longer time to finish.

Aku: (terdiam kejap! Sebijik kena batang hidung) hmm yea. (serious shit aku tatau nk cakap apa) anyway, ive got to go.

Jimmy: o really? Ok then.

Aku: yea, see u tomorrow nite. R u gonna come here tomorrow nite?

Jimmy: yea yea. I need to finish my site model.

Aku: i see u tomorrow then.

.....

That is my normal problem. Im not gonna do it tomorrow.

Inhuman

Seriously,
It feels different tonight.

Alhamdulillah.

Enough rest + just-enough-food + milk coffee
It gives more energy and the ability to concentrate

Plus no internet connection to my laptop.
Which turns out to be very benificial!

Amazing how thing you dont like, is the best thing for you.
Allah knows the best.

Keep praying.

Art

Art is everywhere.
Everyone could be an artist
U dont need to learn to draw
U dont have to be very talented
U dont have to be someone artistic

All u need now is technology
And a bit of creative vibes
Then u r good to go

Art is everywhere!

Mereka

Aku : Mak tanya ayah, dia nak baju size apa? Harituh abg nmpak Polo tgh buat sale. Baju cantik

Mak: Bang, ni ha Napi nak cakap

Ayah: Kirim salam je...

Mak: Dia nak tanya baju nak size apa la

Ayah: xxl!

Aku: Ok nnt abg carik.

Mak: Bang, nnt balik belikan mak handbag.

Aku: berkata dalam hati ( wahhh mak! )

Mak: Belikan bag yg tiga aud10. Yang kecik2 tuh. Bag yg mak beli dulu tuh dah koyak. Sayang. Kak Lang dgn nenek punya cantik lagi.

Aku: berkata dalam hati lagi ( huh? Bag 'australia' tuh ke?) Alaa mak takpe. Nanti abg carikkan Nine West. ( ye la, ayah Polo, mak Nine West lah)

Mak: Ala tak payah. Mak nak bag tuh je. Beli byk2 pon takpe. Nanti bole buat tukar2. Kali nih mak nak simpan semua.

Aku: ( mmg tatau nak cakap apa. Aku diam je terpinga2) Ok la mak. Nanti abg carikkan.

........

Mak dgn ayah are so sweet :)

Love

Anyway, here goes the continuation from the previous post. While i'm taking a break from my assgmnt, let me share something that probably could help us in seeing thing more clearly.

So why is it love is more important than money?

Before I proceed, let me reiterate back, I'm not saying money is not important. It is! Especially when we start talking about our current situation. No money, we wont get anything. We cannot have an iphone, we cannot own an ipad and we cannot buy a macbook. No nothing ilekkk!

All that we could do just look, and keep dreaming of having one of them. So, MONEY is very important. But then, let me share with you guys from what I learnt during my last summer break...

Since that was the only time I am gonna be back at my beloved Malaysia, I have decided to look for Malay books. I dont care, as long as the book is in Malay, I want to have it, and make it as my bestfriend while I am at home. I had enough of English books while I'm in Sydney, so it would be very cool to have reading materials in our mother tounge.

I bought many books from Popular Book Store. Many until I could not remember the title of the books. But one book that I found very interesting and really beneficial was

" MUKMIN PROFESSIONAL"

celik mata hati

I read it from cover to cover and to my surprise, I didnt bored me at all. In fact, from chapter to chapter, it was very fast and when it came to the end, I felt like I was losing a bestfriend.

Anyway, so how does it actually has a relationship between money and love?

Let us go back to the history of Rasulullah SAW close friends;

Saidina Abu Bakar Al Khattab credit to Islam Sebagai Al-Din

Saidina Abu Bakar memang terkenal dengan sifat pemurahnya. Beliau sanggup memderma keseluruhan hartanya demi menegakkan agama Allah. Sebelum memeluk Islam beliau memang dikenali sebagai seorang bangsawan yang kaya lagi dihormati oleh masyarakatnya. Tetapi setelah memeluk Islam, beliau merupakan tokoh Islam yang utama sekali yang telah mengorbankan seluruh harta bendanya bagi kepentingan agama Islam. Di kalangan para sahabat dia tergolong orang yang paling murah hati dan dermawan sekali.

Dalam menyambut datangnya agama Islam, beliau menyumbangkan wang tunai 40, 000 dirham kerana memperjuangkan agama Allah dengan penuh rasa ikhlas dan kerelaan. Bantuan kewangan Abu Bakar itu dicurahkan dengan berbagai cara. Yang pertama adalah untuk membeli hamba abdi sahaya yang telahg memeluk Islam dan selalu diseksa oleh tuannya. Jumlah abdi yang telah dibeli oleh beliau adalah tujuh orang. Antaranya ialah Bilal bin Rabbah dan Amir bin Fahirah.

Saidina Umar Al-Khattab credit to Bersama Alexanderwathern 2

Saidina Umar cuba nak lawan Saidina Abu Bakar dari segi korban harta. Pernah satu ketika umat Islam perlukan harta untuk peperangan. Maka Saidina Umar bawa separuh daripada hartanya untuk didermakan. Dia beranggapan dapat mengalahkan Saidina Abu Bakar, tetapi Abu Bakar rupanya mengeluarkan seluruh hartanya. Begitulah pengorbanan para sahabat.

That were only two stories from the close friends of Rasullullah. There are more of them.

What did I learnt from them?

We do need money. Money would help to generate the economy and keeps everything running as normal. We need money to survive. We need money to study. And we need money for food. That is why, during the early Islamic era, the existence of those 'rich people' were very important. They were the one who give away all their money and wealth to ensure that the dakwah could be continued.

Yes, they give it away for all of them with the hope that one day, Islam would be just like what it is today. Very well-known and the number of muslims could increased from what it was in the beginning. Alhamdulillah, their good deeds really had generated more good deeds and Islam is one of the major religions in the world.

So from there, what I could see is they were willing to sacrifice their 'money' for the sake of Islam, which is their 'Love'! Because of 'Love', 'money' lost its value.

......

And since the day I realized about the existence 'love over money', i try to put it into implementation. Alhamdulillah, it feels really good. Money is no more the cause of my stress. I am free.

Few additional infos;

1. Rezeki di tangan Allah. Kita usaha, kita dapat. Kita share, kita dapat lagi banyak.

2. Amalkan surah al-waqiah setiap hari. InsyaAllah murah rezeki

3. Rajin kan bersedekah. Alhamdulillah, rezeki bertambah2. Im not kidding! It's already proven to me.

Money

When i was a child, my dad always told me that money is very precious. It is something hard to get but if we work harder, we'll get more of them. Very inspiring.

So, since I dont have money and i want them for my junk food, i always followed my dad wherever he went with the hope, he could give me money. It worked, but not all the time.

One thing about him, my dad could see monetary values on anything. He collected old boxes, aluminium cans, newspapers, plastic bottles, broken glass, etc. and sell them for money. Eventhough for some people it is not worth since the price for each kg is very cheap, he dont care about it.

To him, who would give u money? Other people? Or those rubbish? I know, no one gonna give us money just like that. But we could actually gain money from all those rubbish. Very impressive.

Since i had been trained with that kind of mentality since i was a kid, it grows bigger as i am older. I always work to gain more money everyday. I dont care what am i doing, as long as it is halal and i am able to do it, i'll definitely go for it.

" whos gonna give u money if not yourself?"

At that particular time, money is very superior. I had to planned everything since that precious was not something easy to get.

However, things started to change during my trip to Indonesia (Jakarta, Bandung) early of this year. I saw many unlucky people as compared to myself. All they do were for money. Everything is money for them.

Until one day, when I looked outside from the balcony of my hotel, I saw a very old house just next to the hotel. There were a family living in them. The condition was like old those 'setinggan' house in Malaysia evenghough it is in the middle of Jakarta metropolitan.

I asked my friend, why didnt the people inside the house looking at us and admiring us at the same time? Dont they be jealous of seeing us living in such a great hotel? If i were them, i would stare at anyone coming to this hotel, and would make sure i would get the same treatment in the future.

But then, when i started to think back about it, it triggered something. After all, it is not just money that we are chasing for. It is more than that. It is love!

LOVE? How does it relevant to myself?

I'll talk more about it in the next post. Stay tune.

Third experiment

This is what i do while take 5. My originak plan was to go for squash but after having a 2nd thought, it is better to forget it for a while, n concentrate with my assgmnts. However, thats not always the case! Lol

Since i was too bored reading all the research materials, i came out with the idea of continuing to explore on which is the best hair style to suit myself.

So what i did today was to not using my hair spray. I blow dry my hair, and leaved it just like that. I want it to look more natural rather than very stiff due to the usage of chemicals. After all, chemicals would only damaging your hair! Not good not good.

Anyway, why do I suddenly becoming a very self-concious-metrosexual guy? Changing in orientation-interest? LOL.

"NOOOOOOOOO"

I think its basically because ive got nothing more interesting to do. My current life is boring. Uni, work, squash, uni, work. No life. So, in order to make it meaningful, i would rather exploring something different to let go all the stress and at the same time, self-beneficial!

Self-beneficial?

Yea. When i finish study, i would get myself involve with the professional arena. It is very competitive and in order to win, u have to be the best. As for my preparation, i should start with my self-grooming so those professional out there would have their trust on me. In a way, it is one of the attractions thats gonna make them remember me more during the interview. I am very sure that everyone gonna have the degrees and al the academic qualifications, but what makes them different from the rest?

Since i would love to join the 'creative arena', self-grooming is very important. That is one of the things that helping u to boost up the self-confident and an attraction for others to choose you. Hey you are selling idea and yourself mirroing what you selling.

Apart from that, i think by making yourself feeling good, you would have a bright day. So what else to wait?

Dress up people!

Acknowledgement

Remember the tom yam i told u guys before?

The ayam masak merah which i just had as my lunch?

They both really good food! N definitely explains by the photo.

This is what i call 'be friend with a good cook'! Hehe

Thanks fatin :)
Confirm senang hati sapa jadik laki ko nnt!

The lunch

Who said u cant enjoy urself while leaving far far away from your mother?

These are what I do:
1. Work at malaysian restaurant/ cafe
2. Be in a group who loves food
3. Make friends with good cooks
4. Be nice with them all. ( as in help them and make them feels good when u are around. After all u r aftering their food! LOL)
5. Learn to cook! ( its really a tidous job. But luckily we have internet. Google the recipe, n follow the instructions. But theres another way which is more efficient....)
6. BRAHIMs! Yeah. 10mins and u could have your ayam masak lemak cili api!

Im blessed. Alhamdulillah

P/s: the lunch was mee goreng indomie with ayam masak merah (cooked with love LOL!)

Looking

I was quiet pissed with my bew hair cut. I want my personal hairdresser in Johor! He just knew any style that suits myself.

Anyway, friday n saturday were the days im experimenting my new hair cut. Before this I did not care much with my hair style. Im a very simple person. No gel no comb. Taraaa there were me joining other kids.

Anyway, the reason i put up the image above just to show my own experiments on my hair. The one on the right was done on last Friday and the one om the middle was yesterday. All of them were just for fun.

I would try different one everyday until I find the one that suits me the best.

reflection

who said doing your laundry is boring? you would not get anything besides 'doing your laundry'?

who who who?

i believe that is not always the case. it is all up to on how are we gonna utilize our time.

as for me, i always come out something that could be beneficial for me. for example, i am planning to have my shower but the bathroom is occupied. i am not gonna yell to the person inside for my own sake ( excuses in the case of emergency i.e. tahi dah kat ujung dah ). what i usually do, while waiting for the person to have his sweet time ( i always having my own sweet time there. hey dont get me WRONG! ) i would go straight to the kitchen and prepare breakfast for myself.

another case is when i plan to go out with my friend and it turns out that friend of mine is still getting himself/ herself ready. i am not gonna leave him/ her and go straight according to my original plan. no, thats gonna kill the excitement. so, what i usually do is to bring a book ( a novel, any reading materials ) so that while waiting, i still could do something beneficial for myself. i dont want to lose anything, instead i prefer i gain more. the target here is to GAIN MORE.

how about complaining? when we dont get anything just like what we expected earlier, we complain. ok this case is very subjective. there is time when you can and there is time that you could just ignore the feeling. and always remember, complaining is very personal, no one could say no to you.

as for myself, i prefer not to complain. i think it is because of my-lways-positive-vibes that makes me see everything in the positive ways. i always come out with good positive reasons which wont make me to complain. it is good in a way, but this type of personality will always make myself being taken for granted. people always think that i am a person who is very flexible and dont mind of getting anything. but i guess they have forgotten, no one loves to be taken for granted. we love to be appreciated eventhough we always act like we dont by telling "it is ok".

since i am really used to that kind of situation, and having nature of life of 'never complaint', i come out with another option on how to make myself feels good with the people around me.

"I CHOOSE MY FRIENDS!"

yea. i am very choosy when it comes about friends. because i know i am definitely gonna become an awesome friend no matter who my friend is. it would then left with their part, whether to do the same or the opposite. but since i am still a human, and human always wants good thing for themselves, i obviously expecting to get the same as like what i give. unfortunately, not everyone is "practising" the same concept of friendship. so, i usually ended up having my heart crushed but i never complain.

now, that is not the case. i learnt through my experiences. many things happened that makes me stronger and keep me going. and within my 24 years of living, yes, i found few people that could be my buddies. i share everything with them because i have no skeptical thinking about them and their assuredness of being my friend had been successfully tested. thank you for always being there ;)

anyway, so what i could say here is, dont limit your option people. always has a backup. always think of something that had a win-win situation. be creative!

Autumn

Love it. Love it to the max!

It is Autumn time in here. Or orang melayu kata musim luruh. Daun semua nak gugur. Tp sebelum tu, color dia jadik merah, kuning, oren, coklat etc.

Best masa musim nih. Semua cantik.

Tp this year the weather is getting weird. It feels like winter! The temp went down to 9degrees one of the days! Thats winter.

Anyway, whats the problem of having Autumn which behaving like Winter? After all they both are my favourite :)

Natural beauty! Subhanallah
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Surry hills mosque

Found it after finishing my weekly design meeting with Tim Greer. Had the discussion at his office Tonkin Zulaikha Greer (TZG), Surry Hills.

Was a very productive discussion. N Tim is definitely a good tutor. I clearly see my mistake.

"CLEAR ARCHITECTURAL CONCEPT"

My frequent problem in design is always by having non-architectural concept. It is hard to run away from it.

"Think about many concepts.Then ask yourself whether it is architectural or not. Of yes, u may proceed, if not, dump it. Get a new one! "

Very provocative statement that helps clearing up most of my problems.

Anyway, whats up with the surry hills mosque?

Went there for my maghrib prayers. I just knew about its existence last monday while gogle-ing the nearest place from TZG office for friday prayers. The discussion starts at 1pm. And same goes to the friday prayers. Somehow, there's a clash there so i should come out with immediate solution so wont miss out any of them.

I asked Tim is it possible for me to come at 2pm starting next week due to friday prayers. He said ok. Thats cool!

So people, if you want something, just ask. Dont keep your words coz no one gonna hear it. Let it out. The worst could happen is just a 'No'.

And yes, we live in a democratic world which is protecting human-equality among us. Dont be afraid!

Think Tank

Amma appaa!!
Auntie uncleeee!!
Ayayayaya

Ive presentation tomorrow n this thing happen while im in the middle of compiling all my researches?

Ive few options:
1. Go to uni str8 away. Make sure to prepare the coffee + thick winter jacket. Red centre is definitely not the best place to comfort myself during winter!

2. Finish up everything that I could do at the moment. The layouts and all. Then quickly go to uni after subuh which is at 5am. Hmmm. The journey from my hse to uni must be awesome eventhough it is just 15mins away.

3. Turn my phone hot spot ON! Yea this seems solving my problem. But only gonna do it after I finish all the layouts. And it is strictly for research purposes. If not, im definitely gonna go broke by tomorrow morning.

4. Well well well. Just skip the class. After all, the dateline is next week. This week is just to show the individual progress. Hmm hmmm ( keluar tanduk dah! )

Owh, i better start working. Which means the last option could be eliminated. 

If feels really hard to concentrate.
It is 9degrees outside.
All I want at the moment is to sleep.

Yea, i'll get that after I finish planning for tomorrow.

Sleep early, wake up early.

Tea

It's tea time
Recommended by me.
Heritage tea

Testing

Iphone4 (checked)
Camera phone (checked)
Mobile blogger (checked)
Mobile photo editor (checked)
Good photographer (checked)

Good to go!

Kerna Dia

" eh ina aku beli jam guess aud30 je. Dalam rm90. Murah"

"mana tengok?"

" ni haa "

Emak tiba2 bersuara,

" laa macam nih rupanya jam gas. Puas mak pikir macam mana kau nak letak tong gas kat jam. Ingatkan jam nih guna gas utk hidup "

Its funny. I know.

Tapi, tu la mak aku.
Mungkin dia tak belajar tinggi.
Mungkin dia duduk rumah je.
Mungkin dia tak tau jam guess tuh apa.

Aku tetap kagum dgn dia

Pernah suatu masa tuh aku tgh sedih
Tgh tak tau nk carik arah
Otak keliru, buntu

Aku call dia

" dah jangan sedih, nih semua setan nih. Pegi baca Quran!"

Aku terdiam.

Ya Allah.
Aku bersyukur sbb kau telah kurniakan aku
Seorang ibu seperti ibuku
Walaupun duniawi baginya tiada erti
Dia ada kelebihan yang di lua jangkauan minda ku

SubhanaAllah. Mmg ada sebab mengapa wanita sahaja mampu menjadi ibu.

SubhanaAllah.

Ps: looking at those children, having fun enjoying their childhood, it reminded me of my mom. Love.

Reflection

The tree
The leaves

Simbiosys.

The leaves provide food
The tree grows taller for the sun
The sun is helping the leaves for its photosinthesis

We will never walk alone
What we need to do is just ask

U do good thing, people will like u
If u give them shit, u DIE!

Speechless

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" hey, x behaviour doesnt show that x is a person who keep the prayers."

" look at y, y never prays but y behaves like y is a person who never leave the prayers."


A non-muslim friend suddenly burst it out to me.

I smile. I dont know how should respond to that particular question. I know that friend of mine was just expressing about her personal opinion but to me, that incident had brought impact on how should i see things.

" dont judge the book by its cover?"

Not in this case i guess. Once u have carried the title as a muslim, u should behave like one. But thats not alwaya the case. U might be someone who dont leave your 5 prayers but u too still doing those non-muslim doings. Hard to explain.

I am nobody to talk about religion. But as far that i am concern, religion is always becomes my main principle. Through religion, it built up my personality. And i'll definitely gonna carry my title as a muslim as best as i could do.

Define your "best"?

By being a good muslim and doing good to others. No excuse when its involving about my religion. Thats my priority.

Anyway, back to the main issue, in this case, it has nothing to do with the religion. It is the person personality on how they carry themselves.

It is not something unfamiliar.

Sydney people clean up their mess after finishing their meal at any fast food restaurant. They throw the rubbish into the bin.

Malaysian just left everything on the table. They said they have paid the service charge.

P/s: ya Allah Engkau kuatkan lah imanku. Jauhkan aku drp perbuatan keji dan mungkar. Engkau berikanlah aku kekutan dalam mengharungi setiap dugaan yang Engkau berikan.

Passion

It started with just the desire to try a new thing. Then from there, the interest was being developed. It was then Continued as a hobby and now, it is the passion.

I do thing that is my passion very well.

Before going to sleep, think of all the positive values that you have. Your skills and any other extra elements that makes you special and benefit you at most.

Sleep with proper breathing style.

Wake up by telling the world that you are the best by imagining all those postive values of yourself that you have in mind.

You will end up as a successful person.

Ps: ive lots of positive aura to be shared.

communicate

my take 10!

what could be said as good communication?

" when you say something, the person will listen. then it is up to him/ her to decide whether to follow or not"

why is it important?

this is how the interaction happens. with communication, we are able to express out ideas and also our inner-self.

so people out there, communication is very important for us. whenever we go, we need to communicate. many ways but the most popular is by using language.

one question? what is our current 'lingua franca'?

English. Yea. but that was what written in the book. In my opinion, it is the sign language.

Sign language is based on common sense and we dont have to put much effort in learning them.

Dont believe it? Try this.

Whenever you go for holidays in foreign countries, put your finger on your mouth to any foreigner that you meet. Then you will realize how that simple language is well conversed!

Being creative

Just to make myself stay awake while doing my work, i have to move myself from my room sweet room to the kitchen! Yeah. It might be weird to have all your study materials on the kitchen table but, this is what i call sacrifice!

"in order to gain success, we need to sacrifice"

And knowing Sydney's current wheather, i was not be able to start with my report. It was very cold. I could not even feel my fingers!

So, just to save myself from not doing anything due to the unability to concentrate because of the cold weather, i take my heater and put it in the kitchen.

Now i can see that myself is being creative.

1. Kitchen as study place
2. Heater could help me to concentrate

inicio

Regarding to the post below, yeah, I was like had been struck by a very powerful lightning in my Professional Practise lecture just now. Suddenly, everything seemed very clear to me.

I was thinking to close this blog due the busy-ness of my daily life. Architecture student, what do you expect? Thus, just to help me giving more attention towards my design course, I made a decision to end everything here. One thing that on my mind was if it is still here, with no updates, there goes the purpose of having a blog right?

Anyway, one thing that I found interesting, and returning back my lost-blogging-spirit, was quoting from my Professional Practise's lecturer, Mr Graham Bell;

" If you are an academician, and you spend some time during your morning latte or coffee to write on anything, after 5 years, you would be just as good as the newspaper reporter ".

I was like, WOW! Why not I give it a try?

It is not because I wanna become a reporter, but I think that 'writing' is one of my natural talent. Same goes to talking or public speaking. Therefore, by doing just like what Mr Bell had told during the lecture, I am gonna be able to improve my skills and at the same time, enhancing my knowledge on certain issues.

On top of that, I just figured out on how to actually "lengthen" the "blog's column" so that my picture could be fully seen by the viewers! hihi.

Lastly, due to the increment in my maturity in seeing the world and experiences that made me going stronger, this blog is definitely another beginning on "this is how I see my world!"

New Beginning

Something different? Yeah

Professional Practise had made me thinking

" why shouldnt I just keep this blog? After all, this is where everything is started? And yes, this is a way for me to keep practising my skills and my passion".

Thank u mr Graham Bell.

U gave new life on how am I gonna see my life.

Reconcile

When i was about to go to work yesterday, my hsemate came to me and gave me tom yam. He yelled, " tom yam kung for u!"

When i heard about tom yom kung, it triggered my memory back in bangkok. My foster mom had made for me the best tom yum kung i have ever tasted. I asked what is tom yum kung means. She told me kung means prawn. So tom yum kung = tom yum prawns!

Having imagining that in mind, i keep the tom yum inside the fridge and went to work. Yup, i'm gonna have it tomorrow as my bfast.

After finishing with self-grooming and all in the morning, i went to get the tom yum in the fridge. Yes, i could only see those big prawns in my mind! Im so eager to have them all as my bfast.

Unfortunately, that was not like what i had expected. It was just a normal tom yum or easy to say, a vege tom yum? I was sooo emo and throw it away in the dustbin! It ruined my morning!

I didnt even have tasted it before throw it away! I want tom yum kung, the one with lots of big prawns in it! But then, i only got vege tom yum? Arghhhhh. That really pissed me off!

But then after clearing up everything, i look back in the dustbin. Damn! I seriously had made a mistake! Iwas not suppose to throw them just like that. It was given by someone that is close to me. And what i did was just throw it away, without even tasted it just because it was not something i expected earlier? I was so UNGRATEFUL! God must be very very very angry with me. And if that friend of mine who specially made the tom yum know about this, that person definitely gonna be agry with me too! It felt like the effort was just being wasted like that!

Anyway, somehing that i learn today, if u are not at your best state of mind, please dont jump to the conclusion. Have a second thought. And always try to be as rational as possible before making any decision. Because once u have decided of what to do, and made it known to the others, there would be two possible outcomes, whether people like it or they dont. Thats it.


P/s: i know people would think im such an ungrateful-stupid-think-he-knows-everything after reading this post. But that was not what actually happened! Hello, i eat everything no matter it taste good or not! N waking up in Sydney with the temperature was more or less like u were being placed in the fridge, i would definitely need more calories to keep me warm! N yes of coz, i ate everything until cleannnnnnn! Hey i am a sarcasm-monster, dont u remember?

Oh yes, u are forgiven :)

diamond

"challenges are there to be faced, not for us to run away"

My architecture friend texted me saying that this is the first time he felt that design has really made him nervous. He was unsure of what to do and to expect.

I texted back,

"pressure makes charcoal a diamond and you are about to become a diamond"

I explained that all these are happening for his own good. This is a stage of where a beginner is turning into an a non-beginner. A process that is preparing someone to become a better person. And he should be grateful to be given that experience at his early life.

But that was not always the story. Some people are just love to stay within their comfort zone. That is good if you are thinking that life is always fill with happy times. However, the reality is far more HAZARDOUS.

so whats the step in preparing for those 'inhuman' stage of life?

"it is all about your MINDSET"

K

one story

a friend of mine came to me and told me a story. so this is basically a story within a story of someone's story.

let us just call that friend of mine as K

K rang me just to tell about his current unsatisfactorily towards one of his friend.

He said that his friend was asking for his advice since his friend is having a problem of what should be done with his own problem.

K was warm heartedly try to help by giving his opinion. He tried his best, giving all out just wanna make sure that his friend would find the solution in the end. At the mean time, K was actually working on one of his major assignment which was due the day after. But then, thinking about the friendship and how he treasures the friendship very much, he put the assgnmnt aside, with the hope he would be able to comfort his friend.

K gave his advice but his friends seemed didnt like it, and straight away left K without any specific reason. That was weird. K knew that his friend was not on the right state, however, by behaving in such ways, that was definitely RUDE!

K was peace off. Later in the next day, he found out that his friend was talking bad about him, complaining about he was not being RATIONAL. K advice was not suitable with his friends' current condition at that particular moment.

That was really hurting K. He didnt asked for anything. His intentioned was to help and comfort but then, that was not what had been seen by his friend. To make it worst, it was the other way round. His friend still think that he is right, eventhough he is not without him realizing it.

I know that for some people, they only care about themselves. IT IS ALL ABOUT THEM. Everyone need to care them, need to look after them and need to be there for them while that was not happen in return. But that is still ok. What make it worst, when you are asking help from someone, please respect the person who is willing to help you. The word RESPECT might look simple, but it is really hard to be put in one's life. They might take thing for granted but please remember, you are dealing with human. And human DO HAVE FEELING.

Anyway, as for K's case, I just told him to be more patient. Maybe what he can do is try to stay away from his friend until he is already cooling down. But then, in the future, if his friend is asking for his help, K probably should try to avoid it. Knowing his friend, it is better for K to reserve his words rather than being hurt for the 2nd time.

K asked how should this case to be resolved?

"Forgiveness"

Mutual

Sometimes, when u think that u are right, think again. There's a probability that you are at the other side of what u thinking u are. Have a second thought. Or prolly 3rd, 4th, 5th, etc. And the probability is getting higher if u are the one who always cause the problems. You should know yourself better. By thinking that u are always at the right container would not bring u anywhere. In fact, it prolly gonna be demolishing something that is good for you.

On the second thought, always bear in mind that if something is wrong with someone, it is prolly got something to do with what u have done. Especially when it is involving 2 parties, if the other party is having a drastically changes, behaving abnormally without any specific reason that u know, open your eyes and look at your surrounding. Is the person strangely acting only to u or doing the same to the others. The answer is simple, if the others are saying the same, that means that person is in BIG problems. However, if it is only u who had that strange feeling, u definitely GOT ISSUES!

Relax, Reflect and Resolve!