plan

hey hey hey

i'm back with my new watch! haha

ok people, this is where i need u guys to help me. i'm now having my semester break and i'm not sure what should i do within my free two months before my summer school start. here are some of the plans. help me help me to fill my free time so i wont be found dead due to lack of activities to do.

1. read books! yup i have bought a lot of books so that i can at least learn something from them. i'm thinking of exploring more about architecture, general knowledge, motivational and inner-self qualities. i found that they are very interesting. here are my explanations:

i) architecture: as an architecture student, i found myself lack of passion in this field. i am still at the stage of where the beginner stand eventhough i am already finished with my 3rd year at uni. thus, i need to read more about architecture, to polish my understanding about this field. at the same time, i need to start playing with my ideas and creativity so that it would be easy for me to go through my second phase of being an architecture student here in sydney. my plan is to read and understand every single articles in the architecture magazine that i have bought. i'm gonna buy more archi stuffs and try to make myself familiar with the architecture language. it is another foreign language that needs my deep understanding before being able to communicate well through my design and ideas. those who could help me with this thing, feel free to do so cause i'm definitely willing to learn.

ii) general knowledge: i need this so that i can at least put some facts while communicating with others. i learn this from my squash friends which are mostly Australian. every week after finishing with my weekly squash tournament, we would have some dinner between the players. here, they would be discussing about their daily activities, sharing infromation and discussing about any news they found intrigued to themselves. that is why, by feeding me with general knowledges, i can at least bring myself up to be part of the group. i dont want them to think that i'm nothing more that just a good squash player. i want to an all rounder ;)

iii) motivational: well, i love this field so much. it makes me feel great not just because it can motivate me but also it is actually can help me to boost up the confident for all the people around me. i love helping people and i love to make people happy. by exploring more about this field, i could improvise my skills especially in providing more realistic examples to be used in real life.

iv) inner-self qualities: this is the most interesting field to explore. everyone has their own potential to succeed but most of them do not know how to exploid it to be their main strength. this basically related to the self-confident of every human being in this world.


2. knowing the roots. i'm planning to explore about the Islamic History starting from the beginning of Islam. it is including about the life of our beloved Prophet Muhamma SAW, during the brilliance time of Islam and the cause for it to fall. i want to explore more so that i can relate it with my daily life, using the facts to motivate myself and also to counter any uninvited argument. Looking forward to finish this before next year.

3. take more beautiful and meanigful photos. the problem here is i dont know what should be the subject. any ideas?



three is enough i guess. i have to make sure that i must finish all of these before new year. besides all these, i wanna do more part time job! it improves my PR and communication with people.

and if you guys have more ideas on how i could 'walk the talk', feel free to drop your comments.

There is always hope

hey hola huuulaaaa hoop!

apa khabar semuaaaaaaaaaaaa?? sehattt???

the reason i'm back here just to tell you guys that i am now have finished with my 3rd year as an archi student! it seems like i just came to sydney yesterday and today, i'm done with it. pray that my results gonna be good so that i can further with my master next year.

anyway, what i want to share with you guys after this is about an experience that is just encountered by me, during my final presentation last thursday. "THE POWER OF DOA"

I started preparing for my final presentation a week earlier hoping that everything would run as what I had planned. However, it didnt turned out like what I had planned earlier. I only managed to finish my design model only the night before the presentation. Then I had to rush to do all of other requirements that were suppose to present during the presentation as well. Nothing else were in my mind rather that concentration with my works and the prayers to Allah with the hope that I could finish every single work by 9am the next day. But then, I only managed to finish all of the drawings and my design model but not my section model.

At first I thought I should be fine. Then later while taking my bath, it suddenly strucked my mind that, that model might be the cause for me not to further with my master. I was afraid. I had mixed feeling and my mind start to be negative, leaving me with no hope to hold on. After putting on my best attire, I kneel down and pray to Allah hoping that everyhting would be just fine. It worked! I got back the confident eventhough not much. At least I still got the courage to bring all my stuffs to uni on time. 10am sharp, I arrived at the studio.

However, different story happened here. I was very impressed with all of my other classmates' works. Not all, but those who had to present early. Then straight away my level of confident fall to the ground! ZERO. I packed all my stuffs and try to go to a place to be alone. There were some more works that I need to finish up. I had to make sure that my presentation gonna run just good, or at least it could still be considered in the intermediate group, not worst. I did some detail with my drawings, put all the drawings together and started to think on how should I do my presentation.

After finished, I went back to my class and asked my tutor about when is the time for my presentation. 2.40pm and it was 11.30am at that moment. I straight away packed up all my stuffs again, went back to finish my section model. However, while on the way back, it suddenly strucked me that I wont gonna make it. I am gonna screw my presentation. No confident. MINUS!

Then came to my mind about my mother. I asked her to call me back. Then I told her everything. Every single thing that bordering me at the moment. I had lost my confident. I felt like to skip the presentation and do it on other day. I cried! ( I know it sounds unmanly but that was what happened at that moment) I just cant control my mind from being extremely negative. The only think that kept running in my head was the word 'fail'. It scared me a lot.

However, the comfort words from a mother; the person that gave birth to me, the person that knows me the most, the person that is always at my side no matter what and the person that is considered as my positive inspiration; at that moment had at least cured the cancer that was in the progress to kill me. The more she kept talking, the more strength I got to fight back. I was nothing at the beginning of the call but in the end, I got the courage to finish the model and prepared for my presentation. I did it! My mom called me back just after I finished everything. Just in time.

I went back to uni with all my finished stuffs. I was the last person to present. Before the presentation I remember my mom's told me to just be confident and tell the juries everything that I had prepared. That was the first thing in my mind before I started explaining about my design idea.

Finally, when I was done with my part, then the jury went by saying that he liked my way of thinking and my design idea. And before everything approaching the ending, a sincere smile from my tutor with him thanking me for my presentation had really made my day! I did great! Alhamdulillah.

I smiled. The first smile for the entire design studio for this session. The most expensive smile.

Thousands of thanks to my mom who kept praying for my success. She is definitely my no 1. And for my friends out there who did the same. Thank you so much! Not forgotten, you who kept inspiring me with all the wisdoms and you, who always tried to help me eventhough you failed ;P. Thank you ;)

Something for all of you guys out there, dont loose hope. NEVER. When you feel unsecure, go look for you 'spirit builder', they will help you to survive. And dont forget Allah, HE is always there to help. Dont stop your praying to Him. InsyaAllah, the ending gonna be a smile.

p/s: Still waiting for my final result. Do me a favor, pls pray the ending gonna be a happy ending. Thank you ;)

take 5!

i'm having my take 5 at the moment
and suddenly, an idea stroke my mind telling me about a wish list
and here i am writing down my wish list at the moment


1. MAS flight ticket SYD-KL for end of January next year. Yes! Cant wait to go back for the best birthday present for me. But, bile MAS nak sale nihhh???!!! A question for those reading this, should I buy the ticket now or wait until January because MAS always having their SALE on January right? hmmmm

2. Nikon D90 DSLR. The price is about AUD 2000 plus. phewww. Menanges tgk harga! But it is worth to own one considering myself as the architecture student. This is just a wish and I'm still have not come out with any final decision yet. But definitely, one day I am gonna own a DSLR. So summer nih kene part time byk2 lah! huhuhu

3. Watch. Eventhough I am not a person who is so into watch, but I am always dreaming of having a watch that is bronze in color (or probably silver) so that I would look like as a professional. hehehe. At the moment, I prefer to use my AUD15 Q&Q watch, leaving my leather GUESS back at my room. The only reason because it is silver, small and cute! haha

4. White glasses! hahaha I love to look striking and white specs will surely make me the centre of attention. It boost up my confident and always make others to realize about my existence without even talking to them. Will get it when I get back in Malaysia. murah!!! ;)

5. A new laptop. Still not deciding yet.

Owh no. The thinking process has made my five minutes turned into nearly 30 mins. Gonna stop now. wohhhhhhhhhhhhooooooo! Selamat Berjaya Hanafi Rahmat ;)

Reminiscence

Hey ya hey ya!

I got things to share and that explains why I'm here.

I just finished watching KAMI THE MOVIE. I like the movie but that doesnt mean I'm selling my pride by saying its the best. I just like it.

It's about our real life and the main issue is about FRIENDSHIP.

Being someone who easily get touched when it comes about FAMILY and FRIENDSHIP, thats the only reason for me to say I like this movie. I like the part when Abu remembering his brother. I like the scene when Ali felt guilty for his stupidity. I like it when Adi said to Sofie that everyone has their own secret and of course, the best actress in the movie, Liyana Jasmay of being Lynn who was being unbiased in doing her review of Ali's band to be published in the magazine. The story line is just awesome.

Apart from that, the scene that really touched me and ring a bell for me to make a short review about this movie is when Abu accidentally had been stalked by Boy, when he was actually trying to save Ali. That was superb! It brought back the memories, where my journey began and friendship was the one that hold me strong, to keep me pursuing my ambitions.

Yes, that was where the tears started running down, brought me to the far-est thing in my life, THE PAST. That was where I didnt feel lonely, there always support for me to do whatever I feel right and there were also those who didnt judge me but learn to get to know me without any hesitation and prejudice. I just love them all. They made me to be part of their family, as their brother and as someone that they didnt have to feel unsecure for sharing just everything about their life. I am missing those sweet moments.

I know that I am not a very good friend. I know that. However, just put it in your mind, once I have called you as my friend, it means to be forever. I'll never talk bad about my friends. I'll never backstab anyone of you. And I'll never ever and ever forgetting every single moments we shared together. Eventhough it is hard for me to keep in touch, that doesnt mean you guys not in my heart.

ONCE YOU ARE THERE, IT MEANT TO BE FOREVER.

berfikir!

"ignorance is bliss"

owh tidak

buddha cakap

"in order to continue the process of individuality and reversing the process of suffering, a person needs to get away from being 'ignorance'"

dah korang pikir lah sendiri
aku tak bole pkir kalau tgh berkecamuk

chilli

too many secrets make you silly!

jangan jadik begini
haihhh

JOY

korang pernah rasa happy tak?
rasa happy sgt2?
sure pernah kan?
tp, ke-happy-an korang tuh sure tak pernah unik
happy2 biasa2 je kan?
normal2 je? kan kan kan?
*petirr*

nih aku nk citer
ke-happy-an yg kuar biasa
pernah tak korang tgk baju korang,
pastuh korang happy?
pelik kan?
bukan baju cntik2
nih baju yg biasa2 korang pakai
alaa.. baju 'basan' mak aku cakap
*tatau tatabahasa tuh btol ke tak*

so pernah tak?
tak pernah?
aku pon tak pernah
tp hari nih
aku pernah
perghhhh
suke sgt2 tgk kt baju2 aku tuh
aku gembira
bukan sehelai, tp berhelai2!
banyak sgt!
beribu-ribu lemonnnnnn *wahh!*

korang tanak tau ke knape?
*nakkkkkkkkkkk! - jeritan kuat kedengaran*
bagus la korang nih
tak sia2 aku tulis post nih..

act, dah 4 hari aku sedih je tgk baju2 tuh
pelik kan?
perasaan mase tuh ala2 mcm org hilang anak
*matila over terlampau!*
tp harinih
baju2 tuh menyebabkan kau happy
senyum smpai nmpk semua gigi
senyum sampai ke pipi
senyum lagi dan lagi dan lagi dan lagiiiiiiii *echo*

ok la
aku pon dh malas nk taip
sbbnye, baju2 basan aku tuh dah kering!
sydney hujan seminggu ok!
naseb baek pagi tadi aku challenge diri aku untuk sidai kt luar
walaupun weather forcast cakap hujan berserta ribut taufan dan juga angin puting beliung!
*wahhhhhhh! mintak2 dijauhkan :p*

so skarang aku dh happy
happy happy joy joy
happy happy joy!
*terus menyanyi*



p/s: 2nd entry mengarut aku. Aku rase nk mengarut je lah pasnih! NO?