expectation

The world has gone beyond my expectation. I'm afraid! Very very afraid!.

Ya Allah, give me strength.

The strength to stay on Your path.

Ameen.

Fated

I'm officially sick!

I went to work this morning at 8am. I helped my collegue to set up everything for the cafe. But at 9am, i was allowed to go back. My boss gave me the permission. I staright away went to the pharmacy to get some medicine. I have cough, flu and fever; a complete combination!


Since I'm not working, I'm now at uni, still doing my design. I need to finish up the overall planning by tonight!


Hopefully I'm getting better tomorrow.

Fever

I went to uni again today to finish up my design. I'm quiete satisfied with my overall planning of the embassy (my current project) but still need to do some clarification of the idea. I still need to do some more research to support my overall planning.

Anyway, that's not the main issue. I went back early today at 6.30pm. I just can stand the cold environment at my faculty. I didn't bring any jacket and staying there late is not a good idea. Moreover, I didn't feel well as I had running nose and cough! That doesn't make myself elligible to stay up late an resulting me to go back home early.

I went straight to my bed, and fall asleep until 10pm! The feeling doesn't getting any better and that was really making me uncomfortable, and worrying me since I'm working tomorrow.

The only solution I could think were to take few vitamin c and honey. As for the honey, I diluted it with some hot water since having it just like that might be a problem for me since I'm not in the mood of taking any honey. By making it as a drink, it is a lot better cause I could just imagine it as the normal drink.

Get well soon!

SS = Start Saving!

A conversation with a friend of mine at the cafe suddenly triggered me while I'm doing my laundry. She told me about some good point about her husband. I know as well. He's my autocad teacher.

She said that his husband, whenever he would like to buy something, he would first look at the price first. Later, he would do the calculation, save money everyday. For example, if let say he saw a watch and he liked it. N the price is aud200 for example. He would then save aud2 per day until the total saving is aud200 which takes him 100 days to keep maintaining the saving. Then he would straight away go to the shop and get the watch.

I am very impressive with his way of managing his money. Another good example is he is planning to watch the Australian Open early next year and then, he told his wife to start saving from the early of his year. He is saving an aud1 per day!

My point here is, he looks at things not in a small scale and then gonna become a bigger one after the accumulation if the total, within certain period of time. Unlike me, I see things as big, and if I like it, I would straight away get it. That is why, I prefer to shop during sale so that I won't feel bad whenever I'm owning the thing that I bought. Owh one thing that is good about me, before getting the stuff, I would think about it many many times so that I won't regret after owning the stuff.

However, the problem with my way of seeing thing is, I need to be ready at all the time. I should maintain my saving at certain amount, after considering about my monthly expenses. As for my friends, he might have to wait for certain period of time before owning the thing that he had be aiming for. Another factor to consider is the availability of the product. If he is seeing the price during sale, I don't think that it would be the same price after 3 months. The product might as well is already out if stock.

The advantage of his way is he could get the thing that he wants eventhough it is not on sale. One additional good thing about this is the excitement he could achieve after the long waits before owning the stuff. I'm sure it is definitely worth it! As for my way, I could enjoy the excitement of owning the stuff immediately and could staright away l
exploring about the stuff. And it is always in trend ( if I get it not during sale :p)

therefore, what I could say about this two ways of seeing things is we need to save money! No matter what ways we are using, saving money will definitely gonna help us in future. My father always tell me this,

" in the year to come, it is the world of money. You need money to survive!"

and looking at what is happening at the moment, my father is absolutely right! And i'm definitely agreeing with him.

Supplements

I stayed at uni since 11am until now. By the time I'm writing this post, my brain just could not accept anything more and I beleive the best thing to do is to take a break. I'm going home at 2am.

N yes, Ive started to take the my daily supplements and the result was great. I could feel the different and loving it!

I sleep like a baby

Just got back from work.

I told my collegue at the cafe that I was not as fit as before. I'm usually could stay up at night until morning doing my assigment. But now, after I get home from work, I would rather go to my bed and leave all my assigments just like that. I don't have the courage or energy to stay up. Owh I just love to sleep!

But after sharing the problem with my friend, then I realized that one of the reason is because Ive stopped taking the supplements. I'm usually take the man multivitamin, fish oil, vitamin c and brain's supplements. But, I stopped taking all of them after I moved to my new place. The only reason was just because of the laziness in me!

I'm gonna start taking all of them back after this.

Blessing

I woke up in the middle of the night to pay whatever I have owed. With the hope that I could get the old one that I had owned before. But it is not as easy as I thought. I need more practise!

I felt lost. Something is bordering me that I could not explain of what it is. I know I could ind the answer but it has to be done in a proper way. The problem is, I'm not in the proper direction at the moment. I need to look back, turn back and walk back, looking bAck to the old me and find what did I do tha makes me felt blessed.

I just want to be blessed...

Pros and fonts

I hate making decision. Once we finalized it and go for what we have decided, we are 100% gonna be responsible for it! That part was really nood good, according to me. However that is what we need to considr as we grow older.

I might be given a good sense of communication and know quite well about what should be the best solution for others, however whenever it comes to my own decision, I'm very hesiTated to deciside. It is very subjective and the main reason why this is happening, it is just too subjective to handle. Sometimes I even wish for that I could have a look At yhe book which all of the futures event that gonna happen to me could be checked. That would be great so that I would always be in the right track.

And now, I'm still have the same way of thinking about it and still afraid of my own decision. Not just about normal daily life but also in terms of what I wanna do achieve in future. Looks like I really need to find way to get away from his kind of feeling THEN I could see myself high but do not forget to look down at the same time.

I know I can do it and I'm definitely very positive of myself!

Love story

Hehe... I don't know whether it is suitable or not to share about this. But, I still feel thatit is kinda interesting to give a thought about it.

I love watching the love story! Not the one in cinema but the real one. The one involving my friends as the lead actor and actress! haha.

Why? Whenever we Are talking about love, it must have to get involve with affection relAtionship between two parties. N the best part is defintely the storyline of the drama, it is a true story, wher u could actually try to relate it with ur life.

Anyway, I just feel like to share the drama of the night which was happen through fb! N I beleive , long distance relationship is the cause of all. I don't know what to tell about this since I don't think that I'm the right person to share any opinions regarding this matter. But, in this case, I really think that the other party is the one should get the blame. That perticular person was just so not understanding and not being considerate to what is happening to the partner.

Come on! Love needs trust and if you love that person, you should be trusting that person. I know it is kinda hard judging by the current pattern nowadays , but I believe that you should know your partner better after building up the mutual relationship for a period of time. I don't know about the story from the other party but being someone who is on the fence, not being influence from Any parties, merely done the observation through what I have seen everyday, I really think that the other party is just being too much!

The one here was trying so hard to make that party feels happy all the time and always try to as best as possible to fulfill everything that is being wish for by other party. However, that other party seems like has lost the sense of being considerate! That person just wanted to have everything to on according to to is the person wishing for. That is wrong! A wrong way to lead a mutual relationship between two opposite sex! I'm sure, that wuould last long. Any time by now. And that's definitely a great follower of this love story, DISCREETLY! Hehe

can't wait to watch the ending!

She is ......

I was listening to the Morning Show of the 2Day FM while doing my design. It was a really good show where people would call the deejays and asking for their opinions regarding their problems. That's not the issue here. What I wanna share is about the problem of one of the callers.

She is going to get married in October and asking the deejays opinion. Yup, it sounded as a normal question but in order to answer the question, the deejays were asking her another question in answering her question.

" Who is having more money?"

WHAT?? >>> this was what I responded when I heard that.

" Me, I have twice of the man's money, " answered the woman.

HUH? >>> Me again.

The deejays : They would like the woman to reconsider back everything because the man might wanna get married to her because of her money. They were also raising up the issue about what would happened if the guy has an affair in other woman in the future and divorcing her. He would get a certain percentage of her money.

??????? >>> Me!

Okay. First thing first.

1. Why did the woman asking the question publicly to the deejays where it could be listened by all of the Sydneysiders?

2. The MAN might be one of the listeners since this radio is one of the famous station.

3. Why money is the main issue here?

My conclusion:

It is the different culture. It is the different way of thinking. It is the different way of seeing thing! between me as a pure Malay who is being influenced by the religion and culture, and the Australian who is very particular about themselves, giving their whole attention about their life in this world, and money as one of the most important things in life!

if I were the Girl, ........................................

okay, I would be asking the same question but not to the deejays! Maybe someone else who is more close to me and maybe my close friends who knows a lot about myself and my future husband.

and if I were the deejays,

THAT IS DEFINITELY NOT MY WAY OF ANSWERING THE QUESTION! it might be one of the option to consider but it is DEFINTELY not the main one!

updates updates!!!

i always find that it is best to blog whenever u have assignment in few hrs time. and that is why i am here. blogging like i have no other things to be done.

anyway, just a lil updates about myself, this week is definitely the busiest week so far. that explains why i care less to stop here. design + part time job are killing me.

oh fatin, thanks for the award btw. gonna to what i have to do after everything is done. thanks a lot for considering me as one of the recipients. ehehe

ok people. gotta sign out. i have design submission due in 7hrs! tetttttttttttttttttttttttttt...

Money and Love

A couple came to the place where I work. They came at about 6pm and the restaurant was not busy at that time. So, I've got some time to have a chat with them.

They were asking me about the menu and I explained to them what they are.

That was when the conversation started to get more interesting. The wife ( i'm guessing) started to ask about the shop and the owner. She asked about the bird's cage covering the wall.

" Dont tell me that you are actually cut it into two"

" Yup, that was my boss's idea. She is very creative," I said with a smile

" And she's also designing this roof. She wanted it to look like the Malay Traditional House," I added.

" Ya, ya. But here, it is hard if we want to do such stuffs. The space is very limited," she replied.

The conversation continue for a while until I asked them to excuse myself since I had other work to do.

It does not stop there. After a while, she called me back to come to her table.

" So are you gonna stay here after you finish your study?"

"Owh I dont think so. I'm under scholarship and I have contract to work with them after everything here is done"

"What course are you doing?"

"Architecture"

"Really" she giggled.

"My husband here is an architect"

I smiled. I introduce myself and tell them that I am currently in my 3rd year. And I still have two more years to go.

Her husband smiled back to me. Then he started to ask me about what software do I know to use for architecture. I told them about my skills and to my surprise, his wife was asking for my contact details. She asked for my email and contact number. She said that she might give me a call if she needs my help, to help her husband.She added that at the moment, she is learning about some of the architecture softwares and it is really hard for her.

I gave everything that they asked for. They said thanks and ask for the bill.

It was nice to meet both of them. The wife is from Teluk Intan and her husband is and Indonesian. Eventhough that was our first time meeting each other, we didnt felt awkward to communicate.

Anyway, having this conversation, it makes me to start thinking about having a job as an architect. To tell the truth, I never imagine myself as an architect. I always see myself as an entertainer. I love entertainment and that explains why I always having a dream to become one. haha

When start thinking about job, it is also getting me to start thinking about money. Here is the twist. I want to have lots lots of money. Who doesnt rite?

So, I always thinking that it is actually better to work oversea so that I can actually take the advantage of the different currency rate. And at the same time, I dont want to live far away from my family. Being a son who had been studying in the boarding school since I was 12, it means that I had spent half of my life staying away from my family and only came back home during school holidays. I believe I had enough of it and so, if possible, I want to work somewhere near to my family.

The problem here is, if I want to work near with my family, it means that I have to work in M'sia. And by working there, I need to do part time job to get more money. There is no advantage that I could take unless all of my family are moving to Indonesia. Owh no. I love Malaysia very much.

When considering about this problem, the best I could do is to work in S'pore. I spent my Chinese New Year in S'pore this year and it is really a great city. I love the environment, the building and the food as well. They are great. However, when I told my friend about my innocent idea, yup, she agreed that I could gain more money but, my work loads there gonna make myself becoming someone who is worka-holic. I could not have time even for myself.

That is not something that I would choose. I would rather work in M'sia, rather than having that kind of life. I dont have the freedom. It is all about work work and work. Who loves to work for their entire life? No one!

While I'm writing this, I am still do not have any idea of what I would do about this matter.

"Go with the flow"

Yup, I believe that would be the best answer at the moment. Lets wait and see.

Lelaki ini...

From far, I could see an Indian customer waving at me from her table. She were having dinner with her family and when I reached there, they were asking about the dish that one of them were asking before. They said that she need to go early which means that she need to have her meal first.

I told them that the meal is being cooked at the kitchen and will be ready within 5 more minutes. They said okay.

But then, one of the Indian lady there suddenly looked very excited and straight away calling me.

"Excuse me, you do look like ANUAR ZAIN! Are you his relatives?"

and at the same time, she keep telling all the people on the table that I looked like ANUAR ZAIN.

then his husband ( i guess since he was sitting beside her ) repeating the same question to me and all of them looked very interested to know the answer from me.

with a smile I said, " No no, I am not his relatives "

" But you do look like HIM" they replied.

" Owh thanks " I smiled.

My point here is, I dont know whether I look like ANUAR ZAIN or not, but the truth is, this is not the first time people told me that I look like him. hehe

time travel

It is very devastating when you wake up in the morning, the clock already passed the number 11! In fact, it is very close to the number 12! That was not my situation but just imagine, if that is happening, I am sure it is not a healthy lifestyle.

As for my case, I always woke up early in the morning for my prayers and then start digging any stuffs that I could do to kill the time. People said that it is not good to sleep after Suboh, so I would try the best not to sleep after that. However, when does the Suboh time period stop? Must be when the Syuruk comes rite? So does that means that we can go back to under our comfy blanket? That always came into my mind and just to make myself feels good, I am allowing that theory without actually finding the actual fact about it. haha

But HEY! Dont blame me for that. Blame the weather! Blame the environment! haha

Just imagine, while you are doing your stuffs in the morning, the weather looks very gloomy, a sign that looks like it is gonna rain afterwards. Plus, since it is now already in Autumn, the atmosphere getting chiller from day by day. Not forgotten, seeing your housemates, roomate happily enjoying their dreams would surely giving you the impression 'it is OK to join them now but NOT TOMORROW!' However, this incident keep happening everyday, does this means that there is no TOMORROW? haha

I hate it when I am in this situation. And at the moment, after I wrote the post before this, I was wide awake but then, when I finished with this latest post, I am actually describing about my own habit! haha.

start.....counting!

While I am writing this, I am in the state of 'aweness' of what had been told to me through the FB msg. How could a person who is just started working for about less than 6 months, could pay for the car's downpayment, more than quarter of the total price. And that particular car is not the one with the title 'made in Malaysia'!!! I am definitely very impress with what is done by that person.

Anyway, I believe the secret behind this is absolutely lies on the effectiveness of managing your money starting at the early stage.

This is actually a very positive environment. It started to trigger me to think about my future and start SAVING! haha. Knowing me who is prefer to invest my money into shopping, travelling and FOOD, the time I am writing this post is definitely the turning point of me becoming a mindful person about my future!

So how am I going to start? First of all, I need to start calculating about my monthly EXPENSES. It is including of the

rent,

food,

electricity,

phone and

other expenses.

After having the total of all this expenses, I need start thinking about the amount that I am willing to save for every month. Just for self-motivation, since I am now is still studying and under scholarship for about 2 more years, I need to set that ending point as my target to achieve a total of sum of money. To make it more interesting, that sum of money can be substitute with something which is more materialistic, something that we want to have and had been dreaming of to get! As for my case, I am probably can put my dream car as the target.

The next step is to check the price of that car and start thinking that after graduating, you would like to have the car straight away. Owh maybe after a few months of having stable job to make it more reliable dream to achieve!

This is really interesting. Since you have already known the price, start doing your budgeting of your monthly allowance/salary and makes the minimum saving for your account should be the price of your dream car dividing the total month left before you finish your study. I am sure the amount gonna be exceeding of what you are willing to save, after considering every expenses that you need to pay, but bear in mind, it is not wrong to set a high target as long as it is reliable to achieve. So, if you think that it might restraining yourself from having all of the excitement, just allocate certain amount as your entertainment activities. Revise back your budget and make sure the figure should be a number that can be accumulated into the price of your dream car. That must be hard, lets make it as the amount of the DOWNPAYMENT for your dream car! The secret here is, pay more for your downpayment as you will not suffer every month to pay for your car's loan!

OK now I am at the peak of getting this plan into success! Thanks to that SPECIAL FRIEND who had introducing me about this and I believe that I am so lucky to be told at the time where I am still studying abroad so that I can take the advantage of the different currency rate and having about 2-2.5 years time to make this plan work!

Owh before I forget, I can actually take of the advantage of any monetary institution in Malaysia which could providing me with the high divident's rate. Remember, as a Muslim, we are also need to consider about halal and haram. SO, choose the right institution for you to grow your money! In my case, I'll try to look into ASB or Tabung Haji. Look at the pros and cons for both, and choose the plan in a very smart way! If possible, I'll like to transfer the money everytime I go back to Malaysia for holidays. So, when I come back to study in Australia, I will not have the intention to 'disturb' my investment and start concentrating for another saving for the next holiday.

Therefore, for any of you guys who have gone through this experience, feel free to drop a comment, sharing your golden experience there. Thanks in advance ;)

i care

At the moment, i am giving more attention towards my brain. I suddenly felt that brain is actually the most important part in our body. Eventhough we cant see it physically, it doesnt mean that we should neglect about its existence.

Anyway, why should we pay really close attention towards our brain is because it is the one that connecting our thoughts with our physical body. We feel hungry and the impulse is being processed, send to our brain and it is then being transferred to hand to grab any food before putting in into our mouth. Not just that, our brain gives direction for us to actually chew the food and then let it go into our tummy. The process doesnt stop there, it is getting more complex and I believe a Biology Text Book would help me in explaining about this matter.

So, since taking good care of the brain is very important not to just me but all of us, I had been doing a few easy activities to make sure my brain to functioning in a good condition. These few activities are those simple one that could be done by us anywhere and anytime.

I've divided it into three categories which are:

1. Food for the brain

2. Exercise for the brain

3. Training for the brain

Let me explain each one of them in more details (according to my understanding)

1. Food for the brain

Every living things need food for them to keep alive. They need it for energy so that they could keep doing their daily routine. Just like human, if they dont get enough food, they wont be able to do any task for a very long time. The same situation is applicable to our brain. In fact, I believe the work that is done by the brain are far more harder, challenging and complex as compared to our physical has done. Thus, good food is very important in justifying the optimum output from our brain.

I drank a cup of fresh milk with honey. Milk and honey are very good for the brain. Besides, milk helps to keep our bones strong at the same time, giving us strength especially while doing any heavy tasks.

2. Exercise for the brain

What I mean by exercise is how am I going to let the blood to flow into our brain. Thus, I believe that any physical exercise would help this to possibly happen. This is because, let say when we go for jogging in the evening, it increase the pumping rate of our heart. When more blood are being pumped, the frequency of the fresh blood with oxygen to get into our brain is more. Oxygen is very important because it helps to cure any dead-cell and give more energy for our brain to work.

Therefore, when it has more energy to work, more information can be gathered and processed. That is why, I have sign up for the gym and actively play in squash, to ensure that my brain would get the expected 'exercise' for it to perform its best. And another easier way is just by performing 'solat' since the most time that our blood getting into the brain is during 'sujud'.

3. Lastly, training for the brain

I read stuffs from anywhere and try to relate it with myself. It is actually generating critical thinking which is very good in order to make out brain to functioned at its best!

Thats for now. I need to sleep now. Another reminder, if we dont get enough sleep, our brain wont get enough sleep too. This would make it tired, indirectly damaging it, causing it to function not at its best!

Good night ;)

Whisper

consider this situation

"Someone told you a story about other person and that story had been told from someone. At the same time, that person told you that he/she doesnt like to tell story about others"

Dont you guys think it is just the same?

In my opinion, that person is just wanted to look 'kind' or maybe 'good' while telling story to others. If you really mean what you have said in the first place, you wont tell others about what had been told to you. The story stop at you and no other person will know about it after you.

I rest my case!

this is LOVE

Love is for everyone

It is meant for all

It shines

Enlighten every single soul

but be careful

it also bites,

every once in a while...

yes OR no?

As I am writing this post, I was just finishing my daily gym routine as a way for me to keep myself fit after 4 months of no proper sports' training. Why am I really pushing hard on this matter? The only reason is because my squash tournament is gonna start next week and I am definitely not at my best. I need the 1st win as a way to keep inspire me to keep winning for the whole season.

Anyway, my main intention of writing this is because I would like to bring you guys into the story about 'love relationship - to what extend we should love our partner before we get marriage'. HAHA. This is definitely a new field for me since I have never talking about this matter before but, why not give it a try?

In my opinion, I dont go for a close 'love-relationship' before marriage. It is not that I am against it, NO. It is just, based on my personal observation, if we are still not ready for it, it is better for us to stay away rather than feeling the pain of 'break-off'' when everything that we have planned for years, ruined in a second. I've seen many cases and thanks to those involve for the free lesson.

As for me, my priority before get marriage is definitely my family. Having my family around is a one thing that would not fail anyone to make me happy. The smile from each of them, the laughs, tears etc etc are those that could not get using money. It is priceless.

I'm sure many would start bringing up the issue of if we dont take the risk, we wont know the outcome. YES, I agree with that but why not we try to be a lil bit clever here by taking a 'positive risk'? What I mean here is, every relationship is built up with trust. Every partners need to trust each other in order to maintain the flow of the relationship. That is already involving with 'risk'. We are actually risking our 'love-relationship' by risking it by trusting each other. However, why did I say it is a 'positive risk' because if one of us has broken the trust, we are not gonna feel like it is the end of the world or end up by killing ourself. OK I am exaggerated but based of my experience...............,watching my friend's 'love's relationship', break up always making one of the parties to be in a very 'painful state'. Why not both? It seems unfair since both of the parties are the one that committed in the same relationship.

Fuhhh... I need to do my prayers now. Till next time. Chiow!

thepretender

being in the situation when you dont actually feel secure, it is definitely not the best way to spend your wish-memorable-moment. no no no. you pretend. you smile. you happy. you are actually trying to act normal while the real truth is you are so fake, but still in the state of denial while at the same time, trying so hard to make others feel that they are actually the one who are not being themselves. that is bad but for a person who is still living with the past-achievements and always keep high level of personal ego. the combination of both is actually making the situation even worst.

thepretender always pretend wherever he goes. please dont come near because you'll definitely get what you want while the real truth is sometimes the opposite. people pretend but he's the best! people are sometimes fake but that is his nature. and people are always being egoistic but he will never been beaten. congratulation for the title, thepretender is the champion.

for those who dont wish to break the code, keep your distance away. he doesnt bite when he is not being threaten.