adoi adoi adoi

sekarang nih mmg things are getting very extremely explicitly complicated!

how i wish english is my first language.

sonang kerjo den!

Tough

As far as I remember, Ramadhan always comes with the hardest HURDLE for me to pass. Real hard. And for the last few years, they were indeed had given me good lesson about life.

Same goes to this year. It is very tough especially when you have to face it by yourself. How I wish all my supporters to be by my side and cheer me up until the end. But that is just a dream. Nothing is as simple as that in this world.

Two things that suddenly visible to my sights tonight:

1. Tawakal.
2. It is also 'haram' to stop believing in Allah's mercy.

Selamat berbuka 3

Ok dh terliur dah.

Selamat berbuka 2

Selamat berbuka 1

Senjakala

Hidup tak selalu indah
Langit tak selalu cerah

Ramadhan

Dah lepas 8 ramadhan. Nak masuk yg ke 9 pulak. Alhamdulillah, segalanya dipermudahkan. Walaupun ini tahun ke 5 ramadhan tanpa keluarga, alhamdulillah, segala perasaan rindu dapat dikawal sebaiknya.

Tak sedih ke? Tipu la kalau tak sedih. Mana nak sama sahur dgn family dgn sahur sorang2. Mana nak sama buka masakan mak dengan buka nasi putih je. Tak sama. Memang sayu kalau difikirkan nasib diri yg merantau. Namun, nak atau tanak, kehidupan tetap perlu diteruskan.

Banyak bezanya. Mak pon ada cakap masa call harituh.

" Tak boleh balik raya ke tahun nih?"

Terdiam sekejap masa tuh. Tak tau nak jawab mcm mana. Mungkin dah lama tak beraya bersama. Tuh yang tepacul keluar kat mulut mak....

" Mak, diorang semua ada kat rumah?"
" Diorang semua pergi bazaar Ramadhan"
" Dah lama dah abang tak pergi bazaar Ramadhan. Rindu pulak "

Mak pulak terdiam. Sayu. Boleh dgr kat suara dia. Menyesal jugak terlepas cakap
macam tuh....

" Abang, kau nak kuih apa? "
" Aku nak bahulu. Kau carik yang rangup2 tau. Kalau yg lembik tuh aku tak makan "
" Lagi? Nih aku dgn ayah nak pergi beli nih "

Aku terharu. Tanda ingatan semua. Walaupun berjuta batu berjauhan, kami dekat dihati. Masing2 sibuk mencari cara agar kesibukan ramadhan dan kemeriahan syawal yg bakal menjelma dapat aku rasa. Sayu....

Mungkin masa dekat2 dulu, selalu je bergaduh.
Mungkin masa serumah dulu selalu je tak suka.
Mungkin masa kecik2 dulu selalu je benci.

Tapi itu semua dulu. Suatu masa yg tak dapat nak amik semula. Cuma ingatan. Dan ingatan itulah yang menjadikan, kami semua akrab, rapat, sehati dan sejiwa.

Sesungguhnya, merekalah harta yang paling bermakna dalam hidup ini.

Semoga, dengan berkat Ramadhan kali ini, kami semua beroleh barakah, dipermudahkan rezeki dan dipanjangkan jodoh untuk dapat bertemu di kemudian hari.

Salam sayang sang perantau.

InsyaAllah

I know that I am just recycling the same photo here BUT at the time I am writing this, it totally has a different meaning.

Different degree
Different experience
Different difficulties
Different way of thinking

It is hard. Well, nothing is easy in this world. People keep saying,

"it is not easy to get easy"
"it is all about the hardwork and determination u have put in"

Eventhough I am still wondering about how future is gonna treat me, but one thing that I know at this moment is,

" no turning back!"

I have to finish with what i have started. The journey is less than a year to go.

Pray for me.

InsyaAllah