cant wait!

we!

I'm definitely gonna miss them all

The journey together gonna end soon

I have no choice but to accept it

Hopefully, it will last forever

I've lost some that I love

But not this time around

Ameen

expression

look at their expression!

yes! i miss having those moments.

with the people i love

i still having those winning moments here but

with no people that u love around

it is just another plain moment

the excitement wont last forever

i miss them all

priceless

the expression is priceless!

happy 23rd birthday ;)

here is the secret

yeay!

kl-melb 20 dec 2010!

smile people smileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Apology and Congratulations!

ahhhha!

I checked my previous entry and guess what, i myself dont understand what am i talking about!

ok, the reason here is because i blogged using my ipod and it has some sort of automatic spelling functioned. when i type the word, it assumed that it knows what i want to type and simply change the word without me realizing it.

n now, when i read the post about SS = Start Saving, there were a lot of grammar, spelling, words, etc etc mistakes. And the composition of the sentences were weird and could not be understood! haha. but hey! it was really fun blogging through your ipod though!!!!!

and now, just wanna inform that i'm now in the top 13 of UNSW squash league! woahh, i started from the top 100 and now... time flies time flies...

mentioning about time, OMG!!! CHONG LI LI IS MARRIED!

one of my close friends from high school is MARRIED! browsing through her photo album in FB really makes me think about getting married! time flies time flies! i still see her as a nerd student with piles of books and files walking through the KYS foyer to go to the Resource Centre! Owh that was like 6 years ago? the time when everyone was very busy preparing for spm but now... hey hey hey! Chong Li Li is marriedddd!!!!!

Congrats chong!!!

Fated

I'm officially sick!

I went to work this morning at 8am. I helped my collegue to set up everything for the cafe. But at 9am, i was allowed to go back. My boss gave me the permission. I staright away went to the pharmacy to get some medicine. I have cough, flu and fever; a complete combination!


Since I'm not working, I'm now at uni, still doing my design. I need to finish up the overall planning by tonight!


Hopefully I'm getting better tomorrow.

Fever

I went to uni again today to finish up my design. I'm quiete satisfied with my overall planning of the embassy (my current project) but still need to do some clarification of the idea. I still need to do some more research to support my overall planning.

Anyway, that's not the main issue. I went back early today at 6.30pm. I just can stand the cold environment at my faculty. I didn't bring any jacket and staying there late is not a good idea. Moreover, I didn't feel well as I had running nose and cough! That doesn't make myself elligible to stay up late an resulting me to go back home early.

I went straight to my bed, and fall asleep until 10pm! The feeling doesn't getting any better and that was really making me uncomfortable, and worrying me since I'm working tomorrow.

The only solution I could think were to take few vitamin c and honey. As for the honey, I diluted it with some hot water since having it just like that might be a problem for me since I'm not in the mood of taking any honey. By making it as a drink, it is a lot better cause I could just imagine it as the normal drink.

Get well soon!

Supplements

I stayed at uni since 11am until now. By the time I'm writing this post, my brain just could not accept anything more and I beleive the best thing to do is to take a break. I'm going home at 2am.

N yes, Ive started to take the my daily supplements and the result was great. I could feel the different and loving it!

I sleep like a baby

Just got back from work.

I told my collegue at the cafe that I was not as fit as before. I'm usually could stay up at night until morning doing my assigment. But now, after I get home from work, I would rather go to my bed and leave all my assigments just like that. I don't have the courage or energy to stay up. Owh I just love to sleep!

But after sharing the problem with my friend, then I realized that one of the reason is because Ive stopped taking the supplements. I'm usually take the man multivitamin, fish oil, vitamin c and brain's supplements. But, I stopped taking all of them after I moved to my new place. The only reason was just because of the laziness in me!

I'm gonna start taking all of them back after this.

Not

There's a time that we would feel bad ourselves, lazy, and not feeling well without any specific reason. In fact, you just wanna going around, to have your own time. Whenever tired, u would just go and lying down on the bed to have a nice and comfy nap.

However, everything would be spoilt just like that if there is something that is not happening according to your own way. The feeling is like when someone come to you and suddenly tell you something that is not funny but hoping that you gonna laugh! Hey, that's not happening!

So this is what I felt. Not feeling good. Don't know what is the cause of all this. I just wanna slip away from the reality and get into my wondrland,,, for a while....

Pros and fonts

I hate making decision. Once we finalized it and go for what we have decided, we are 100% gonna be responsible for it! That part was really nood good, according to me. However that is what we need to considr as we grow older.

I might be given a good sense of communication and know quite well about what should be the best solution for others, however whenever it comes to my own decision, I'm very hesiTated to deciside. It is very subjective and the main reason why this is happening, it is just too subjective to handle. Sometimes I even wish for that I could have a look At yhe book which all of the futures event that gonna happen to me could be checked. That would be great so that I would always be in the right track.

And now, I'm still have the same way of thinking about it and still afraid of my own decision. Not just about normal daily life but also in terms of what I wanna do achieve in future. Looks like I really need to find way to get away from his kind of feeling THEN I could see myself high but do not forget to look down at the same time.

I know I can do it and I'm definitely very positive of myself!

Planning is vital

It's holidays! Easter holidays!

I'm not suppose to be here, updating my blog for every minutes, no, this is not suppose to happen. What I should do at the moment is to start looking for the infos for my design. I need to look up for the common dimension used for stairs, rooms, balcony and all of other convention used in daily design materials.

" you need to start measuring things. Measure every single things that you like. You have a measuring tape right?"

Owh that was very embarrasing. It seems like I don't learn from my mistakes!

That was supposed to be my plan for today, until I found out that my iPod could be used to update my blog. So, here I am. Lying down on my bed with an iPod charged to the laptop, typing down every single thing that came to my mind. Eventhough the keypad was not really user friendly but it still not a problem. N it looks like my typing rate per second keep increasing per blog entry i made! That's really a good progress and I'm definitely loving it!

Oh ya, since this is holidays, it would be boring if it is not being filled with something that is rarely being done during the uni days. I have a few plan and hopefully everything gonna be run smoothly.

1. Sydney Royal Easter Show
this is not my 1st time since I went there in my 1st year. But this time around, I wanna stay there from morning till night. My friends told me that the events are more interesting during night. Many lights would definitely give many different feeling and excitement! Can't wait to experience it, again! Owh, did I tell u about the goodies bags? Yeah, gonna be amazing!

2. Steam boat
we are planning to have this since all of us are craving to have steamboat here. It is hard to get it outside unlike whenwe were in Malaysia. There are a lot of things to be considered especially about the halal- ness of he food and also the price! Services here in Sydney are very expensive and to have a steamboat, that would be more pricey!


3. Autocad class
I still have a few more topic to be learn from abg man and hopefully I could fond time to meet him and finish up everything. Autocad is damn hard but definitely gonna be easier after proper training and certain time of practicing it! I can do it!

4. Design design design
this is a must thing for me to do. The plan is, I go uni for the whole day and start doing my work! Design design drawing drawing architorturing archiChoke! I need to come up with better plan and finish up everything before Tuesday the week after Easter break so that I could take the advantage of meeting Harry after the lecture. I'm desperate for his comment on my work after a very bad presentation yesterday ! 10% were gone just like that!

That's all and pray that all of this plans will be done during this holidays! Happy holidays everyone :)

New gadget

hey hey hey hey hey hey!

Introducing to u guys my latest gadget, yeahhhhhh IPOD touch!

This is the chronology of the stories of how did i managed to get this as part of myself:

1. It happened after Friday prayer. I read the Sydney Morning Herald while having my lunch at 'Nasi Goreng'.

2. I was alone until my housemate suddenly came to join me. That was very unexpected.

3. I saw an advertisement about this Ipod Touch in the paper and told my housemate about it. The price was down from AUD250+ to AUD199.

4. My housemate was very excited and that made me became excited as well ;P. I told him that I would buy the ipod if he bought it too. I took only a few minutes before he positively responded to my suggestion.

5. Dick Smith! Cash and Carry!

Anyway, someone had 'reminded' me that I told that person that I dont like ipod before. I would rather buy the 'walkman' mp3 instead of the ipod. Here are the reasons why I said that:

1. Walkman mp3 is very colorful

2. The design is very interesting and capturing my attention

3. I could listen to the radio! and this is my main reason.

And why did I changed my mine and got my myself and ipod touch?

1. It has nearly the same function as an iPhone except for not having the fucntion to be used as a phone.

2. I could installed a lot of applications. Radio, Al-Quran, and many many Games! and etc etc etc!.

3. WiFi!

4. It was on sale!

and many many other great advantages of having it one besides just to be used as the main gadget as music device.

And my current mode at the moment : JAKUN :P

Thank you

Thank you cik fatin for awarding me this such cute little award.

Here are the rules to accept the award :

1. Thank & link the person that gave you the award

Cik Patin Pepatin Pon POn Pon. Thanks a lot! http://notthatshoe.blogspot.com/

2. pass this award onto 15 bloggers you've recently discovered and think are fantastic

I really think that I need to skip this part. Its not that I have no one to be awarded, it is just that I am sure that they are not gonna respond that with this ;P

No one read my blog since I still havent open up my blog to the public. (as in letting the world publicly knows about this blog. It is still being done privately without changing the setting into private)

3. Contact said Blogs and let them know they've won the award

I have to contact them here. Hey you, you are being awarded for being beautiful! ;)


4. State 7 things about yourself


1. I'm beautiful - that's the main reason i get this award ;P hehe
2. I love squash and it is still my favourite until now
3. an architecture student and currently doing my degree in Sydney
4. Happy go lucky
5. I prefer to be 'lemah-lembut' coz I definitely hate violence. And dont ever think to take advantage on that coz I read PEOPLE's mind.
6. I dont judge after a few meeting
7.Low profile and reserved.

8. Expect the UNEXPECTED coz I love being different.

That's all. mekasih ya patin pepatin pon pon pon!

Heart

This is what I look at whenever I feel lonely and dont have the courage to start working on my design. It is sitting next to my bed, looking at me whenever I'm on it. It gives me strength to start my day after being taken care the whole night. I feel safe and it brings happiness. The love is always in the air!

Money and Love

A couple came to the place where I work. They came at about 6pm and the restaurant was not busy at that time. So, I've got some time to have a chat with them.

They were asking me about the menu and I explained to them what they are.

That was when the conversation started to get more interesting. The wife ( i'm guessing) started to ask about the shop and the owner. She asked about the bird's cage covering the wall.

" Dont tell me that you are actually cut it into two"

" Yup, that was my boss's idea. She is very creative," I said with a smile

" And she's also designing this roof. She wanted it to look like the Malay Traditional House," I added.

" Ya, ya. But here, it is hard if we want to do such stuffs. The space is very limited," she replied.

The conversation continue for a while until I asked them to excuse myself since I had other work to do.

It does not stop there. After a while, she called me back to come to her table.

" So are you gonna stay here after you finish your study?"

"Owh I dont think so. I'm under scholarship and I have contract to work with them after everything here is done"

"What course are you doing?"

"Architecture"

"Really" she giggled.

"My husband here is an architect"

I smiled. I introduce myself and tell them that I am currently in my 3rd year. And I still have two more years to go.

Her husband smiled back to me. Then he started to ask me about what software do I know to use for architecture. I told them about my skills and to my surprise, his wife was asking for my contact details. She asked for my email and contact number. She said that she might give me a call if she needs my help, to help her husband.She added that at the moment, she is learning about some of the architecture softwares and it is really hard for her.

I gave everything that they asked for. They said thanks and ask for the bill.

It was nice to meet both of them. The wife is from Teluk Intan and her husband is and Indonesian. Eventhough that was our first time meeting each other, we didnt felt awkward to communicate.

Anyway, having this conversation, it makes me to start thinking about having a job as an architect. To tell the truth, I never imagine myself as an architect. I always see myself as an entertainer. I love entertainment and that explains why I always having a dream to become one. haha

When start thinking about job, it is also getting me to start thinking about money. Here is the twist. I want to have lots lots of money. Who doesnt rite?

So, I always thinking that it is actually better to work oversea so that I can actually take the advantage of the different currency rate. And at the same time, I dont want to live far away from my family. Being a son who had been studying in the boarding school since I was 12, it means that I had spent half of my life staying away from my family and only came back home during school holidays. I believe I had enough of it and so, if possible, I want to work somewhere near to my family.

The problem here is, if I want to work near with my family, it means that I have to work in M'sia. And by working there, I need to do part time job to get more money. There is no advantage that I could take unless all of my family are moving to Indonesia. Owh no. I love Malaysia very much.

When considering about this problem, the best I could do is to work in S'pore. I spent my Chinese New Year in S'pore this year and it is really a great city. I love the environment, the building and the food as well. They are great. However, when I told my friend about my innocent idea, yup, she agreed that I could gain more money but, my work loads there gonna make myself becoming someone who is worka-holic. I could not have time even for myself.

That is not something that I would choose. I would rather work in M'sia, rather than having that kind of life. I dont have the freedom. It is all about work work and work. Who loves to work for their entire life? No one!

While I'm writing this, I am still do not have any idea of what I would do about this matter.

"Go with the flow"

Yup, I believe that would be the best answer at the moment. Lets wait and see.

time travel

It is very devastating when you wake up in the morning, the clock already passed the number 11! In fact, it is very close to the number 12! That was not my situation but just imagine, if that is happening, I am sure it is not a healthy lifestyle.

As for my case, I always woke up early in the morning for my prayers and then start digging any stuffs that I could do to kill the time. People said that it is not good to sleep after Suboh, so I would try the best not to sleep after that. However, when does the Suboh time period stop? Must be when the Syuruk comes rite? So does that means that we can go back to under our comfy blanket? That always came into my mind and just to make myself feels good, I am allowing that theory without actually finding the actual fact about it. haha

But HEY! Dont blame me for that. Blame the weather! Blame the environment! haha

Just imagine, while you are doing your stuffs in the morning, the weather looks very gloomy, a sign that looks like it is gonna rain afterwards. Plus, since it is now already in Autumn, the atmosphere getting chiller from day by day. Not forgotten, seeing your housemates, roomate happily enjoying their dreams would surely giving you the impression 'it is OK to join them now but NOT TOMORROW!' However, this incident keep happening everyday, does this means that there is no TOMORROW? haha

I hate it when I am in this situation. And at the moment, after I wrote the post before this, I was wide awake but then, when I finished with this latest post, I am actually describing about my own habit! haha.

a problem shared is attention gained

I believed that when I am starting to complain about my fate, there will always someone who stand up and tell me that there are other person who is not as lucky as I am. I always try to counter back but it definitely will end up that I am nothing against what is being said. I am definitely on the same track as the person who said that to me. I am still a lucky person.

However, one thing for sure, how lucky you are with your life, you still cannot run from having your own problem. It can be personal which you do not want to share with others or it is also can be something that you dont even bother if others knowing about it. As for me, I am not a person who loves to tell my every stories and make myself just like a 'living library'. No, I am not that type of human being. I leave everything to myself because I know I have the confident level as high as the mount Everest, that I will find my way back.

Talking based on my first experience, I am just another egoistic person who dreams to soar high but ended up got bitten by the eagle. Look at yourself, you just a butterfly. You can't fly high. Well, a person like me, by convicting a mistake, I learn my lesson.

At this point of me writing this, I am trying to change for a better. I create my own support group. I learn this from one motivational book that I read and I believed that it is really beneficial to me. This particular group is consisting those people who always having positive thoughts about me and keep pushing me, reminding about what to do and also, providing courage whenever I am feeling hopeless. They could do it in many ways, virtually or invisible. Both ways would work as long as they are purely from heart with the message of genuinely trying to pull up my spirit to fight for my rights! This is how I am still could escaping myself from doing something that is beyond my limit, going against my principle in life.

Besides, continuous prayers, asking for help from The Above is definitely another way to lift up the spirit. You could only do the planning but He is the one who determines everything. You might think you have done enough, but if He doesnt want to allow you, you are definitely could not make it. But remember, a reminder for myself too, as a Muslim, our prayer is our sword. Hold it tight, InsyaAllah you will succeed. By having said that, you need to beleive in what you are praying for. Believe that you will definitely get it. If it is not sooner, it might be later. Keep the prayers going.

Therefore, for those out there who are feeling lost or down, just remember that you are not alone. Create your own support group and keep the prayers going. Believe that you are going to make it and be prepared of what is going to be decided for you. At this moment, the choice it is not yours, but it definitely the best thing that can happen to you. Keep the spirit going and sooner or later, you will ace it. Never give up and remember, 'a problem shared is attention gained'. Keep that in mind, and start soaring!

one more is leaving

it is a sudden decision. one more is leaving. leaving me alone here. i know it is just for temporary but knowing the fact that the number of my friends are decreased drastically due to the same reason - balik kampung, it makes me missing home more. but dont worry hanafi, your time will definitely come.

when mentioning about the word being left alone, i think it is better to be that way. less trouble and less complicated. and most importantly, less pretending. yes! dont get me wrong, i'm talking this in general, not dierecting to any specific person. i guess you guys should have known why the word 'thepretender' came from by now.

but hey. my friends are coming over to visit me!
yeay! they are definitely gonna make my days while they are here.
fatin, rahimy, faaris and shikin!
cepatlah! jom camwhore :P!

anyway, some of you guys might have read about my previous post and due to some personal reason, i had to keep it for a while until everything is clear. gonna repost it later.

p/s: tomorrow is hari raya aidiladha and i'm thinking of making mee udang! i'm not gonna wish u guys yet coz i'm thinking of making a special one tonight. and now i think i need to go to get the stuffs for my mee udang. chiow ;)